My heart, your heart

Well heres that other interesting post thats been cooking up in my mind. these past few weeks I've really thought about those crazy feelings I've been having about this sudden other. In all honesty I really do think that this all happened unexpectedly and may be a product of my lonliness or something crazy. Anyways back to the heart of the matter. When I laid in bed when I was in Mississippi, I thought about these feelings. I prayed about it and asked God that if these feelings that I have are really true then I wanted to see more of her heart. At the moment it seemed like a perfectly reasonable answer, but lately I kind of think its selfish of me. I want to see more of her heart, but would I be willing to show her mine? It seems to be the important part of any healthy relationship, two people have to be willing to show their true selves to each other. For me this kind of manifested in that one moment I was with her. I guess you can say that I showed myself a little bit, but I really haven't seen very much of her's. I know of one occasion that she turned down one opportunity (which I won't say because it might give away who she is) because she felt that it wasn't in God's plan for her. I had overheard this one morning as she spoke to one of my roommate's friends. I'm pretty sure that guy was like WTF!? but I understood. I really think that she could have had a shot in that one event, but it just goes to show where her priorities were.

I really do hope that God will do something whether it be with her or another girl. In some of the relationships I've observed there was very little interaction between the two. Sure there was the two people together, but it was mainly being by each others side. Thats the physical part of it, but maybe I didn't see the emotional. I just wondered what exactly goes on with those two that could possibly warrant time well spent. Its like staring at each other from accross a table and not saying anything. Thats why people need to open their hearts to each other. Hopes, fears, love, worries, priorities when people reveal those to each other I think something special can bloom. I guess the reason that this doesn't occur is because people don't try to make a comitment because relationships can come and go. Why go into the mushy gushy when you know all that could fall apart in an instant? It's things like this that can change all that. Revealing weaknesses can often lead to learning about others strengths so that two people can comliment each other.

Thats my hope, to one day find that person or to learn more about this girl. Because a relationship isn't about one person, its about two people.