Density

Well I'm back from Mississippi and it just so happens that the time spent there also had my creative mind at work in both post topics and anime ideas (two After Dark Stories already done). Anyways, this post comes from an unlikely source of inspiration. My grandma is friends with someone who owns a Chinese restaurant in the city she lives in. So she always gives my grandma a big box of fortune cookies (not a bad hook up huh). While I was munching away at thier cookie goodness one fortune caught my eye. It read and I quote "someone is interested in you. Keep your eyes open." Now I'm not one to believe a cookie, especially this one and the fact that my dad once got a fortune much like this one (at one of my cousin's dinner parties a few years back and yes he is happily married to my mom). It was a strange fortune, the odds of it being true are probably impossible. I suppose it seemed like a sign of either false hope or just the worlds way to mock me. Though it got me thinking, people always say that you shouldn't be the one looking for that someone but you need to be that good person first.

I know I have my own short comings but I do strive to be a good guy even in a world that sucks. Thats why I'm the ninja of Long Beach, the world can say what it wants about how much I suck or don't fit in but it shall not control me. I suppose I am really dense when it comes to noticing people who could be interested in me. Maybe I focus too much on myself and trying to be who I want to be that I shut myself off to how others feel. I guess its one technique that this ninja has to train himself on to find someone. No I'm not in a mid life crisis or anything, I just believe that its important to see these things in other people. Yet there has to be a limit to noticing these things. Its strange that some of my friends are girls and its difficult for me to differentiate feelings sometimes. Obviously even though I am a good guy I'm sure girls like that part of me and that its not a feeling of affection. I usually go off that because I know that it would be arrogant to believe that all the girls I'm around may have the hots for me. I guess the feeling I give off to some of my friends is one that makes them feel safe and secure. I'm a gentleman in a world of creeps sometimes, I treat them respectfully like any person would like to be. I guess its hard to be single and dense, its like an anime I watched (a really weird one) where one guy is liked by three different girls and he still doesn't realize it even by the end of the short lived series. I'm kinda like that its hard, but I see it as a way of not being arrogant. Like I said earlier if I thought all girls had the hots for me then I wouldn't be a gentleman anymore. Though it seems like from one tasty cookie that I should try to be more observant when it comes to these things and who knows maybe the cookie will be right.