Pursuits

Well now I can say that it has been a really, really long time since I last posted something. I suppose the rarity of my posts have been because of one school work and two my lack of romance in my life. Its been about one year since I moved on. I've still been protecting the heart of the one I care for. I suppose the one thing that I learned this year is that if you truly love someone then you'll pursue thier heart. I suppose thats the one thing that I didn't do, action in the pursuit of love isn't my forte per say. The fact that one must be able to show someone that if they care and even love someone then they'll make an effort to do things that shows they care and spend time with them. Now I suppose theres a fine line between being together and spending too much time together. For instance, in one case I've been observing for the past year its like one of my friends put it "they're joined at the hip". They're always together to the point where the girl will stay at our apartment even if he isn't there. Worst part is that the girl seems to take advantage of the poor guy's patience. If this were an ungodly relationship the girl would either be a victim of abuse or dead (which I wouldn't wish upon any girl, this is just the ninja of Long Beach being brutally honest). But enough about them, the line of spending time with each other is something in my observation should be taken in moderation. I understand that there are times in which spending time is good, but the times two spend apart is important as well.

I suppose in my ideal cup cake land relationship, we'd go on dates and what not but there would be times in which we spend time apart. Those moments would be important, we'd do our own things and know that the other is always someplace in our hearts. Like I said this is cup cake land and my ideals aren't necessarily correct ones. I recognize the fact that relationships are active things and not something that can be picked up when we find convienent. Which means that they can be both physically and emotionally exhausting sometimes. Its unfortunate for someone like me (I know this may seem like I'm lamenting or down right bitching but I call it self reflection) that doesn't take action or pursue a girl that I'll miss out on ever getting my holy maiden's heart. Its difficult, I simply watch as the world passes me by like cars on a highway.

Its not that I don't want to do this its like I said its difficult. I know I'm not the best person with words sometimes and the things I do for people are hard to discipher how I feel about them, but its my way of showing people I care and love them. I don't even think that "pursuit" is the wrong word for trying to get or show someone you love them. I believe that its about giving your own heart to that person. It seems like now a days that men must capture the heart of the woman they love, but I feel that it should be that they should be willing to give thier hearts to them. Doing this shows that you do care and that even if the relationship fails then you'll both know that the other cares for the other. Maybe I'm full of crap but its just the way I feel. So before you capture the heart of the one you care for be willing to give your heart first.