New Heart
Well happy 2010, its been a decade since 2000 huh but thats too painfully obvious. I suppose that this will be a good post who knows. Many people think new year, means new beginnings or some crazy thing like that. I'm not sure if any of us should call it that since we tend to forget the feelings and memories of the past. No this won't be a top ten list, but I suppose that the feeling that I will never forget is my experience with my unrequited love. No I'm not obsessed or anything so I'm perfectly stable and sane. Its a feeling that I never felt before, I don't regret the actions I've taken since changing the past is impossible (look up time paradoxes on wikipedia its interesting stuff). I often wondered where my heart will go from a few months back, where I didn't know what to feel, to trying to make sense of what I lost to renewing my oath as a ninja.
I suppose this past year I've seen much in my heart, I've developed an understanding of love and caring that goes beyond this shallow world we live in. People may find me naive in some things or aspects of my life, but theres no point in judging others since we all have our own problems we don't realize. I find that when we lose something sure we grow stronger, but sometimes the pains or feelings that arise from those lost feelings still remain. When I remembered my position as the ninja of long beach I felt better about my singleness. I think that this was an important feeling since I think I might not find someone, sure its painful but as I said before its a destiny only the ninja of Long Beach can handle. Thats why I'm not necessarily worried about finding another person to care for, since I love everyone equally and thats what makes me and others happy. So in this new year it shouldn't be out with the old and in with the new. It should be keep the old close to your heart and welcome the new along. I may have worries in my heart, but I'll keep faith that god has wonderful things planned for me and I have people I love and who love me. So as this heart faces another year let it be one that keeps on caring and providing freelance services from the shadows.
I suppose this past year I've seen much in my heart, I've developed an understanding of love and caring that goes beyond this shallow world we live in. People may find me naive in some things or aspects of my life, but theres no point in judging others since we all have our own problems we don't realize. I find that when we lose something sure we grow stronger, but sometimes the pains or feelings that arise from those lost feelings still remain. When I remembered my position as the ninja of long beach I felt better about my singleness. I think that this was an important feeling since I think I might not find someone, sure its painful but as I said before its a destiny only the ninja of Long Beach can handle. Thats why I'm not necessarily worried about finding another person to care for, since I love everyone equally and thats what makes me and others happy. So in this new year it shouldn't be out with the old and in with the new. It should be keep the old close to your heart and welcome the new along. I may have worries in my heart, but I'll keep faith that god has wonderful things planned for me and I have people I love and who love me. So as this heart faces another year let it be one that keeps on caring and providing freelance services from the shadows.
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