A tale worth telling
If you've read the title of the post then let me reassure you that this is not a pitch post. Those are amply titled as you have read. I suppose that this post came up with the thoughts as my title as ninja of Long Beach. A proper origin story is somewhat appropriate I guess. I want to paint a story of how a young man, who once considered himself as a charming prince and valiant knight turned to a life in the shadows of society and now seeks to protect the lives of those he loves.
I suppose it all started when I was young, when my family would always be invited out to dinner by some relative. Whenever we would see them they would always give my older brother and I the same kind of praise anyone would give to little boys. They would say "oh, what handsome princes", now my parents would be flattered and being the small child that I was I found the praise gross. HEALTH LESSON: when you're little attraction to the opposite sex is gross, until you hit puberty then everything changes as seen in my posts. I felt the same way, I suppose anyone would wish to be praised like this in a non-patronizing way. Girls love the fairytale scenario, where they hope to find that one prince charming or knight to come and sweep them off thier feet. 8th grade, women always say that girls are vicious when it comes to aggressive girls, they were right. I find myself recieving no sympathy when I was bullied in 8th grade all I would find is criticism and hatred. Thus the charming prince died.
9th to 12th grade, no changes. Senior year is when this blog was born. At that time while the prince rotted in the ditch called my junior high a valiant knight sought to battle the forces that hated him. However while others had friends and companions who they could say that they would be friends forever, this knight found none who were like that. The ones who called themselves friends to the knight would betray and abandon him. While the knight gave up on them he would try to carve his own path. These would become the defining moment to the life of the future ninja, I would see the world for what it was ugly and shallow. I desparately tried to live a life like a valiant knight, the one strength that I drew was from the first girl I liked. If you remembered anything from my past posts she was the one I liked since sixth grade till Senior year. 9th and 10th I would see her every so often, I never really talked to her since she was one of the "popular" girls (stupid school, clicks I hate them). While the world seemed to fall apart around the knight she was the light that he wanted to protect. But at the same time he saw that his actions could never reach her and his valiant efforts were in vain. Junior year the event that ultimately breaks the knight (I wrote about it, its in the earlier posts so read it another example of brutal honesty). Leaving his gov/econ class a bunch of girls seemingly "wait" by the door at the end of class. Now I only get a 5 minute passing period so I didn't want to be late. Then I exit and upon my departure I hear a sarcastic comment from one of the girls "My what gentlemen we have". It breaks and infuriates the knight, and the ninja kills the knight and from then on there was only the ninja.
Thus I became the ninja of Kennedy, a dark shadow who saw nothing but ugliness from a world that hated me for existing. I wanted nothing more but to get through a day of school so I worked my hardest and from it I furthered my studies and journey to Long Beach. And for some of my readers the people there truly changed the bitter heart of the ninja turning him into the ninja of Long Beach. I kind of gave my title as ninja back in high school because of two reasons. One: Naruto was real big back then (this was back before it became main stream) and two: I would bend the world to help me survive, I would do it so that the world would never know I was there and slowly destroy it by living a decent life when others didn't. Its a fun title I give to myself, it may sound like I'm joking to others if they read this. Maybe they see a funny story or maybe they see a tale of how a idealistic boy's hopes and dreams were destroyed by the world but from the death of those dreams a decent young man emerged.
I gave this title to myself and my predecessor (I've heard only bits and pieces of his tale, but from those snippets I think he deserves the title too) because through one's pain and suffering one should never give up. To give up is to give in to the world that seeks to consume the ideals of others. From that one seeks to gain a better understanding of thier existence for me and the first it was in the community we lived amongst AACF. That is my definition of what it takes to be a ninja.
I write this not to say why I gave myself a seemingly silly title, but in hopes of letting people understand why I pride myself in that title (I list this title in my facebook among other titles as well). Another reason I wanted to write this was because of my precious friend. She was the one person who made me wish that I could once again be a valiant knight, even though I was a ninja who (and I quote myself) "couldn't care less if you were kidnapped by witch and forced to make cheap happy meal toys". Not only that but she managed to somehow make this young man feel things he has never felt about a girl before. I know that the little things I did with her never showed her how I really felt, but its a part of my title the unsung hero of the darkness and that was fine with me. I really hoped to be with her, but I think a valiant knight suits her best and she does have someone like that and this ninja couldn't be happier for her. I guess I really am better suited to being a watchful protector in the shadows. I wouldn't wish what happened to me on anyone, I'd make them aware of what this world is capable of and as a result I protect them. I'm not censoring reality from anyone I just want people to be mindful of the dangers of this world that this young man faced.
From prince to knight and finally ninja. People may say that ninjas are cowards because they strike when people least expect it. I say that the world is a coward because it least expects me. They are a group of noble and dedicated warriors, the cowards are the people who don't think they can do anything because they can and when they do you never expect it. That is why I chose this title to define the person who I am, I live a noble life in a terrible world. It is a title that I am proud of and that the world should fear.
I suppose it all started when I was young, when my family would always be invited out to dinner by some relative. Whenever we would see them they would always give my older brother and I the same kind of praise anyone would give to little boys. They would say "oh, what handsome princes", now my parents would be flattered and being the small child that I was I found the praise gross. HEALTH LESSON: when you're little attraction to the opposite sex is gross, until you hit puberty then everything changes as seen in my posts. I felt the same way, I suppose anyone would wish to be praised like this in a non-patronizing way. Girls love the fairytale scenario, where they hope to find that one prince charming or knight to come and sweep them off thier feet. 8th grade, women always say that girls are vicious when it comes to aggressive girls, they were right. I find myself recieving no sympathy when I was bullied in 8th grade all I would find is criticism and hatred. Thus the charming prince died.
9th to 12th grade, no changes. Senior year is when this blog was born. At that time while the prince rotted in the ditch called my junior high a valiant knight sought to battle the forces that hated him. However while others had friends and companions who they could say that they would be friends forever, this knight found none who were like that. The ones who called themselves friends to the knight would betray and abandon him. While the knight gave up on them he would try to carve his own path. These would become the defining moment to the life of the future ninja, I would see the world for what it was ugly and shallow. I desparately tried to live a life like a valiant knight, the one strength that I drew was from the first girl I liked. If you remembered anything from my past posts she was the one I liked since sixth grade till Senior year. 9th and 10th I would see her every so often, I never really talked to her since she was one of the "popular" girls (stupid school, clicks I hate them). While the world seemed to fall apart around the knight she was the light that he wanted to protect. But at the same time he saw that his actions could never reach her and his valiant efforts were in vain. Junior year the event that ultimately breaks the knight (I wrote about it, its in the earlier posts so read it another example of brutal honesty). Leaving his gov/econ class a bunch of girls seemingly "wait" by the door at the end of class. Now I only get a 5 minute passing period so I didn't want to be late. Then I exit and upon my departure I hear a sarcastic comment from one of the girls "My what gentlemen we have". It breaks and infuriates the knight, and the ninja kills the knight and from then on there was only the ninja.
Thus I became the ninja of Kennedy, a dark shadow who saw nothing but ugliness from a world that hated me for existing. I wanted nothing more but to get through a day of school so I worked my hardest and from it I furthered my studies and journey to Long Beach. And for some of my readers the people there truly changed the bitter heart of the ninja turning him into the ninja of Long Beach. I kind of gave my title as ninja back in high school because of two reasons. One: Naruto was real big back then (this was back before it became main stream) and two: I would bend the world to help me survive, I would do it so that the world would never know I was there and slowly destroy it by living a decent life when others didn't. Its a fun title I give to myself, it may sound like I'm joking to others if they read this. Maybe they see a funny story or maybe they see a tale of how a idealistic boy's hopes and dreams were destroyed by the world but from the death of those dreams a decent young man emerged.
I gave this title to myself and my predecessor (I've heard only bits and pieces of his tale, but from those snippets I think he deserves the title too) because through one's pain and suffering one should never give up. To give up is to give in to the world that seeks to consume the ideals of others. From that one seeks to gain a better understanding of thier existence for me and the first it was in the community we lived amongst AACF. That is my definition of what it takes to be a ninja.
I write this not to say why I gave myself a seemingly silly title, but in hopes of letting people understand why I pride myself in that title (I list this title in my facebook among other titles as well). Another reason I wanted to write this was because of my precious friend. She was the one person who made me wish that I could once again be a valiant knight, even though I was a ninja who (and I quote myself) "couldn't care less if you were kidnapped by witch and forced to make cheap happy meal toys". Not only that but she managed to somehow make this young man feel things he has never felt about a girl before. I know that the little things I did with her never showed her how I really felt, but its a part of my title the unsung hero of the darkness and that was fine with me. I really hoped to be with her, but I think a valiant knight suits her best and she does have someone like that and this ninja couldn't be happier for her. I guess I really am better suited to being a watchful protector in the shadows. I wouldn't wish what happened to me on anyone, I'd make them aware of what this world is capable of and as a result I protect them. I'm not censoring reality from anyone I just want people to be mindful of the dangers of this world that this young man faced.
From prince to knight and finally ninja. People may say that ninjas are cowards because they strike when people least expect it. I say that the world is a coward because it least expects me. They are a group of noble and dedicated warriors, the cowards are the people who don't think they can do anything because they can and when they do you never expect it. That is why I chose this title to define the person who I am, I live a noble life in a terrible world. It is a title that I am proud of and that the world should fear.
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