The ninja vs the World

Well here's another thought provoker for all my readers. I know I might be crossing into familiar territory since I think I might have posted something like this in some girl post. I guess you can say that this post is inspired by some recent events that I ran into. As most of you know I watch unhealthy amounts of anime and collect various anime related merchandise. If you've ever visited my room in the apartments or if you're really lucky actually gone into my home room you'll find that I am borderline obsessed. I suppose I ran into this on my recent visit in my apartment. On this rare visit I was going to stay over for the night for a trip to Disneyland with friends (thank you free visit offer and to those who made it out and helped those who came it was a awesome 12 hours). I suppose two of my roomates actually paid a rare visit to my roomate and my room. Now if you've seen my room at the apartment its painfully obvious that I like anime. And upon my roomates and my roomate's girlfriend (yes to my surprise she is real and not just a cardboard cut out that lives in a closet) visit they began to critique some of the posters (for some reason) and one (names will not be posted to protect the identity of the guilty, but then again I doubt they read this they really should it would give them insight into how I think) said and I quote "these won't get you girls". Then further critiques by an actual girl (my roomate's girlfriend) and you can see how all of this actually went down.

I find thier critique rather odd, you can say on one side I was sort of upset I am proud of my posters and what series they represent and on the other side I really didn't care. It really made me scratch my head as to why they thought all the things in my side of the room were weird. In all honesty and I don't mean this in any mean or accusing way whatsoever so if said roomates actually do read this (which I doubt, but then again its linked to my facebook) and to my other readers don't speak of this in public, I think in our apartment the room I stay in is the most human. I mean I take pride in my fascination in anime just as my roomate takes facination in marine biology. I mean I'm not a mindless robot.

Which brings me to the argument, no the accusation I have against the world. A world of contradictions where the world says that being yourself is the way, yet people will reflect themselves and be shot down by the world. Even clothes are this way. We buy a particular shirt thinking it looks good or the style reflects our personality, yet we find that other people wear the same shirt as well. Its a trap of society and modernity, when we buy things we think that it will represent us yet they do not. Consider this: think about the last shirt or piece of clothing you bought from a clothing store, did you have a hand in creating it? Did anyone from the company actually come up to you and asked you what you wanted the design? If you answered no to any of these questions I have this to say, you are not an individual by wearing that piece of clothing. We think we have control over what makes us different yet we don't. We can't walk into a Mc Donalds and order nachoes, since people do not create the menu a faceless monster called the world does. What I'm getting at is that society is controlling us without us knowing. We want to express ourselves yet we are bound by the rules and offers of society and our peers.

I make this bold accusation not only against the world, but the said roommates and young woman. Remember, I am the beast and (as one of my friends puts it) the defender in the night and I challenge thier beliefs shaped by the world. You may say that what I enjoy and feel are strange, yet in the end I shall live a fufilled and enjoyable life. I am who I am, I will not be shaped by you or the world. Ninjas live a life by thier own terms, follow thier own path and will touch the lives of many; fools who live by what society tells them will fade into nothing and are forgotten by the world. I will not be told how to live my life, I've come to terms with myself and with my relationship with women that is a state that the three of you will probably never attain. You may say that I'm wrong but you and the world will stretch your arms out into the darkness with blind folds on shouting "who am I?" and I'll come up to you and whisper "No one".

I'd like to end with a scene from Gundam 00, where one pilot desparately fights to change the world despite being blind to its own contradictions and being content with the way society is. He longingly reaches out to the Earth and asks "You people are you satisfied with this world?" and then his hand forms a gun pointed towards the Earth and he replies "I'm not...". Just like that character I ask my readers this "are you satisfied with the way the world is?" Don't be, we can change so much and I know by writing this and you reading this we may be able to change it in some small way. Do not be consumed by what the world tells you or how to live, because then you'll end up like those who I accused. Thus the ninja of Long Beach will continue to live and enjoy the things that he enjoys without fear of what the world thinks.