The Source of the Mysteries

Wow I must be on some writing mojo this week, I suppose this is another deep post mixed in with some other stuff. I sometimes wonder why good people like me are left unnoticed by the world both in terms of society and love, but I think I arrived at some kind of answer. Yes part of it involves the world (what don't I blame the world for?) but theres another thing to it too. I suppose it comes to satisfying ourselves, in a privileged country like America it pretty much all boils down to that urge. I suppose I'll talk about the love aspect, sex is an innate thing in all of us. Its instinct yes or even genetic memory (wikipedia it, interesting stuff) but why do we feel a need to satisfy such an urge? Continuation of the species? It feels nice to have someone around? I think the answer to why such a thing matters is within ourselves.

The shallow world we live in almost demands that a person get together with someone else. For men its worse, everything is worse when your a guy except in the job market or opportunities. For my female readers if you do still read my posts quite frankly it sucks being a guy sometimes. Our restrooms suck, fights are settled with fists or harsh psychological warfare via insults that question our sexual orientation. For guys to be single at around my age it's a sign of either laziness or incompleteness. A girlfriend is more like a trophy than something deeper. I write this because I think I might be the only single guy in my apartment, but I could be wrong. For guys we make the relationship about ourselves and nothing more and I think thats very sad. Now I always mention that maybe that person won't be the one and that perhaps our relationships are some kind of trial run to something bigger some day.

It pains my heart to see something like that. What my roommate said might be true, but at the same time I'm not satisfied with the dating process the world presents us with. I don't want to put anyone who's been in a relationship on a guilt trip, but what my dai-ge once told me was true too you learn so much from it about yourself and what kind of person you would want. I know I would take a break up, but what about the girl. Who would want to hear "Sorry you were a step in my path towards a marriage". I wouldn't want to see anyone see a relationship as that. I the problem is that we make relationships about ourselves or about the other person. In walking my path as a ninja I've come to learn that one must make a relationship a God oriented one. Since two people wouldn't have one another if it weren't for his blessing.

I'm 22 years old and still single, I know I have no right to judge others based on all these things in relationships. The world rushes us into making rash decisions almost in a capitalistic sense for relationships. Where guys only date to show off how manly they are or show how much they don't suck. I may only have this year left in my undergraduate career, but I wouldn't want to rush into a relationship just because I want one. If the world says I'm pathetic for still being single, I'll spit in its face. This ninja barks for no one. Maybe I have too high expectations, the one thing I am glad for is that God blessed me with a precious friend who I care for and even though I never told her how I felt I learned so much. It'll be an interesting year this time around, but I was glad that she was the one I could honestly say that I felt something like love for.

The source of the mystery behind relationships is within ourselves. We selfishly try to satisfy ourselves yet we fail to see deeper meanings between two people. We fail to see future hopes, dreams and feelings because the world says to make an omlet you gotta break a few eggs. Maybe if we can see beyond ourselves we can make things work better.