A Catcher in the Rye moment

I decided to write this upon a something that happened to me on facebook. So yes its a true story, much like some of the things I write (my anime ideas occur in my fictional world its a pretty diverse universe). So I think it was like Tuesday or Wednesday (apparently my facebook won't tell me), I get a friend request from some guy who was in my graduating class from high school. Now heres the funny thing, I've only heard of the guy; barely talked to him nor did he make any attempt to talk to me. Long story short yes I accepted his friend request, if you're going to be (pardon my rude langauge but I have a feeling that my cynical side is going to take over) bitchy about who your friends are on facebook why make a ignore button for such requests I don't know maybe you don't want thier garbage posts on your homepage thats perfectly reasonable.

Lets just say that my motivation was to merely humor the guy, do I expect a happy birthday from him on my birthday or have him ask me how I'm doing (again pardon my language) HELL NO! In all honesty I didn't even talk to the guy nor did he even talk to me or acknowledge that I existed in high school. Tangent time (but this time its necessary) my favorite book is Catcher in the Rye a classic that has been banned from some high school English classes. Theres a part where I think its Holden's roommate is getting ready for a date with some girl that Holden knows really well. His roommate is one of the jocks at the school and he asks Holden if he can borrow his blazer to wear. Upon hearing this Holden realizes he's only asking him for something for his own benefit. He knows that his roommate would only talk to him if he needed something and that Holden would gladly fufill any request just because he knows how popular he is. In the end he says no and they get into a big fight that makes Holden black out for a bit.

I feel that this was much like a moment like that. I really don't care if this guy even reads this post or not (its linked in my facebook and he may not even know its about him) in all honesty I don't even know the guy. Go back to the top paragraph to understand why I allowed him to be my friend. From my understanding (I got this purely from his facebook page and from my own deductive reasoning THATS WHY BEING A HISTORY MAJOR ROCKS!) we're only friends because we went to the same high school. One word that sums it all up: SHALLOW. Also from looking at the mutual friends I live with two of the guys he also knows again: SHALLOW. So from my understanding he's only friends with me because of two reasons One: we went to the same high school and Two: he's making me a middle man to communicate with my roommates. Call me crazy lots of people do it and its fun, paranoid no, should I even be semi-angered and even posting something like this? thats in the eye of the beholder.

I guess I'm posting this because he's one of the people who actually got to live a proper high school life something I never really had. I'm not jealous or envious even though I do seem like I'm pissed off. I just want to be understood and he's someone that will probably never take the time to understand me. I had so much crap to face everyday when I went to my high school that it would have driven a weaker man to insanity or make him another Columbine kid. I can bet you that he's never faced anything like that nor do I feel that he would understand what I went through. I know I bring up my high school days a lot but those days were days that had a strong hold in my life. I remember sharing a little bit about these days back in my second year at AACF Thanksgiving dinner and how I expected people to give me a round of applause for sharing, but something different happened. I got my applause, but afterwards I got hugs and people telling me how much they loved me and wanting to know more to understand who I was. Those are the people I am proud to call my friends and brothers and sisters. I don't think this person would ever feel the same he'd just say "wow, it seemed pretty tough for you back then.". He just wouldn't understand.

Once again I don't care if he reads this, if he does then I hope he had a better reason for a friend request. If he ever spoke to me I know it'd be out of obligation because of this post and if his first question was "what have you been up to" I'd say "I just remembered an errand I have to run, sorry but I gotta go" (if he wants to come with I'd say its private bussiness) and in reality I'd go for a walk. I'm sure all of us have people on facebook like the person I had, but to those I am friends (on facebook or not) with I am truly blessed to know you.