Your the only one

Well its been a really strange and busy few days lately and I haven't written anything. So as I promised one of my readers heres the post. I suppose the interesting thing in my job as the ninja of Long Beach is that I do work for girls for free. I think its my way of being a gentleman despite being able to dance between the lines of light and dark as a ninja. If you're a girl and no matter who you are I do work for free, under one condition I get a smile from the girl. However in my wanderings I've learned that when you do love a girl you will treat her differently. She would be the target of your affection and you would only be nice to her and she would do the same. I suppose you can say that it's one of the problems I face, I can't really do that. It's difficult, I'm a nice guy and I try to be nice to everyone I meet so when it comes to girls either I get really awkward or I'm just plain friendly. I suppose when I do try it just seems strange or out of place. For instance like that instance last semester where I bought my friend that anime button. In my head I wondered if she would really appreciate it or not, she did but then another thought was would she see it as something special I did for her.

I'm really awkward when it comes to treating a girl I like as someone special to me. I don't really talk much so I don't necessarily open up to women very easily. Since most of the time when they find out I like video games and anime it seems to turn them off =(. Because of that I'm more of a man of action so the things I do are my ways of showing someone that I care. I suppose the problem with that method is that no one really notices sometimes. Hence my thoughts about offering my services to all women for free. Why not just one girl for free and half off for everyone else? I think thats kind of selfish, I know I should set one person apart from others but is that really love? Now I understand that treatment and faithfulness are two different things. In my case it seems more of a matter of making it obvious to a girl that I like her and faithfulness is the matter of that I won't cheat on her or look at another girl lustfully.

I suppose this goes back to how nice people don't get girls as opposed to aggressive people. It's like an animal when it enjoys being petted and handled by everyone its nice and friendly, but when it only warms up to one person and bites other people that is when you can say that it cares only for one person. I suppose being nice in my case makes me seem like that nice pet, but when I'm like that its difficult for people to see me trying to get closer to them. I suppose that was my problem in my last case, but like I've said over and over again I don't regret that. I just wonder sometimes how I should do things for a girl sometimes, the world is shallow and sometimes people don't look beyond the actions or emotions of a person to see something beautiful in them. Heck I enjoy being nice to girls, most of the times guys are jerks and I understand that perfectly since I got bullied a lot. So for anyone just look beyond the things I do for you because its just my way of showing I love you.