From what ended to what begins

Double post day today, but that will all become apparent in the next few minutes/hour. I guess you can say that this post will satisfy a few of my fans to some extent. So sit down and get a glass of water to drink since its so hot right now. One of the things that ninjas can't do is fall in love. I guess I can see why, at times it makes you feel things that perhaps you don't understand or cause you to think irrationally. I suppose I did feel a few of some of these things. However at the same time I wish they didn't end somewhat abruptly. I suppose now I can write a proper timeline of my so called encounters with attractions.

When I was younger I suppose it was a more physical thing, when you're a kid people are stupid sometimes. Its like that scene in Bambi where Bambi, Thumper and Flower all fall in love during spring. Overall shallow stuff. I suppose I had it somewhat easy with the girl I liked when I was a kid since I made her the only one since like 6th grade. I think that was the stupid thing on my behalf. I was only kidding myself whenever I asked myself what I liked about her personally since in actuality I was somewhat lying to myself. Eventually I forgot about her since it was all stupid in the end and even now thinking about it now I want that part of my life back.

College, I suppose now I know what I somewhat want in a girl. I suppose its thanks to her that I know now what I should have known then. Its kind of sad now I can't feel what I felt for her last year. I'm kind of sad yet I don't know what I should be feeling now. It's like an anime I'm watching now where the guy gets rejected by the girl he likes yet every time he sees her he can't help but feel love for her. I don't want it to sound like I'm obsessed or not its just that it's really weird that theres no girl who could top what I felt for her.

I'll still protect her and I respect her as my sister in Christ and I'm glad that we can be both friends and her older brother spiritually. The world says I should be regretting it all, but I don't. This ninja will face what now begins and will hold those memories dear to his heart. Like I said before I'm glad we were able to meet and that this shadow didn't simply walk pass her. I will show love and bless others just as she showed me and now the ninja boldly walks towards what begins now. Bang, take that world.