Patience vs. Action

Another post, next time I think I'll post something on a pitch XII or something since I'm still fine tuning a proper ability for a blind sniper with prostectic eyes. But that will be posted when I finally come up with something. A story for another day I suppose. For now let us take in another interesting issue that has been laid in this ninja's path. A little back story on how this post was thought up; I was going to my aunt's house to pick up dinner for my family while listening to the radio (the Fish it calms my nerves when I drive since I'm still a little nervous behind the wheel) when a Christian version of the eHarmony commercial comes up. To sum up the commercial since I don't remember all of it; its the whole patience that God has someone for you and the plug that eHarmony will help. This isn't going to be a rant on eHarmony since I think that a machine choosing who will be my soul mate is much like Skynet sending a T-800 or TX to come get me since I am a dangerous mind afterall (fear me world for I will point out your shallowness!).



I know God has someone for me, maybe that person is wondering the same thing like me. However it seemed interesting that a plug like that by making something like eHarmony speed up the process was interesting to hear even on the Fish. Its like another person told me, I'm young and theres still time but at the same time I have to do something and not be a hermit since things just don't fall out of the sky for you. Its a half and half thing, faith is good but faith needs to fuel action. I'm not much a man of action, but as a man of faith I can do that. Its like I mentioned in another post I'd like to have one of those moments where I'm walking to class or around the apartments and I run into a girl who is either late to class or rushing to meet some friends. We'd both be knocked to the ground and I'd ask if she was okay and she'd be cute in some way and then small talk and somehow we'd hook up. Yes I just described an anime scene (half of the series I watched at least have some kind of scene like this) that in and of itself is luck.



I just wonder to myself sometimes how long will it be? I'm not necessarily mad or anything I'm just curious. Whenever it does happen I hope God has a sense of humor and sets up some kind of situation that I described and it makes it clear to me that she would be the one. I'll wait yes, but at the same time the world says why wait when it could be now. I kinda got that from some of my readers comments with the other posts. I don't exactly regret not taking action, its just that somewhere in my heart there was doubt in taking action, but at the same time perhaps God was trying to show me something in this girl that I should really take to heart. I think it was the fact that I should wait on it and he'd help me find her and from there he'd guide my actions making everything make sense.



Whether or not thats true or not is up to chance now. I know that something will work out for me whether or not I get a girl's heart or not. For that only time and God will tell.

The Source of the Mysteries

Wow I must be on some writing mojo this week, I suppose this is another deep post mixed in with some other stuff. I sometimes wonder why good people like me are left unnoticed by the world both in terms of society and love, but I think I arrived at some kind of answer. Yes part of it involves the world (what don't I blame the world for?) but theres another thing to it too. I suppose it comes to satisfying ourselves, in a privileged country like America it pretty much all boils down to that urge. I suppose I'll talk about the love aspect, sex is an innate thing in all of us. Its instinct yes or even genetic memory (wikipedia it, interesting stuff) but why do we feel a need to satisfy such an urge? Continuation of the species? It feels nice to have someone around? I think the answer to why such a thing matters is within ourselves.

The shallow world we live in almost demands that a person get together with someone else. For men its worse, everything is worse when your a guy except in the job market or opportunities. For my female readers if you do still read my posts quite frankly it sucks being a guy sometimes. Our restrooms suck, fights are settled with fists or harsh psychological warfare via insults that question our sexual orientation. For guys to be single at around my age it's a sign of either laziness or incompleteness. A girlfriend is more like a trophy than something deeper. I write this because I think I might be the only single guy in my apartment, but I could be wrong. For guys we make the relationship about ourselves and nothing more and I think thats very sad. Now I always mention that maybe that person won't be the one and that perhaps our relationships are some kind of trial run to something bigger some day.

It pains my heart to see something like that. What my roommate said might be true, but at the same time I'm not satisfied with the dating process the world presents us with. I don't want to put anyone who's been in a relationship on a guilt trip, but what my dai-ge once told me was true too you learn so much from it about yourself and what kind of person you would want. I know I would take a break up, but what about the girl. Who would want to hear "Sorry you were a step in my path towards a marriage". I wouldn't want to see anyone see a relationship as that. I the problem is that we make relationships about ourselves or about the other person. In walking my path as a ninja I've come to learn that one must make a relationship a God oriented one. Since two people wouldn't have one another if it weren't for his blessing.

I'm 22 years old and still single, I know I have no right to judge others based on all these things in relationships. The world rushes us into making rash decisions almost in a capitalistic sense for relationships. Where guys only date to show off how manly they are or show how much they don't suck. I may only have this year left in my undergraduate career, but I wouldn't want to rush into a relationship just because I want one. If the world says I'm pathetic for still being single, I'll spit in its face. This ninja barks for no one. Maybe I have too high expectations, the one thing I am glad for is that God blessed me with a precious friend who I care for and even though I never told her how I felt I learned so much. It'll be an interesting year this time around, but I was glad that she was the one I could honestly say that I felt something like love for.

The source of the mystery behind relationships is within ourselves. We selfishly try to satisfy ourselves yet we fail to see deeper meanings between two people. We fail to see future hopes, dreams and feelings because the world says to make an omlet you gotta break a few eggs. Maybe if we can see beyond ourselves we can make things work better.

A Look Into A Pitch XII

Well its been a while since we last introduced a member of royalty from the Children of Overon so join me for another installment of a look into a pitch XII so without further adue.

Princess Sherin Overon
Age: 14

Of all the Overon children Sherin is the most studious. Always having a pile of books near her whenever she sits down. Despite her unkempt appearance she is a self made genius. She is the complete opposite of Prince Reven when it comes to her studies and work ethic. Despite being Reven's complete opposite the two were inseparable when they were younger. But the two were eventually separated and she has kept brief contact with him through letters. She currently resides with the royal family of Vila, a city known world wide as a center for scholars and medicine. She is always found around the castle's archives or university libraries when she manages to sneak out. As the game begins she realizes that her days of carefree studies are coming to a close. However she leaves the city to put an end to the war as well as transforming the land of Overon into another center for scholars.

Catria Pevern
Occupation: Librarian
Age: 30

A woman who looks far too young to be 30, she spends many hours working in one of Vila's many university libraries. She always seemed to have an answer for whatever question that people have either for books or for life in general. Historical questions had always been her forte, she could tell anyone everything they wanted to know about past wars, kings or people. Her beauty has made caught the eye of many suitors, all of whom she has turned down. She spends her time working alongside her young assistant Laura Cheng. Despite her looks she is skilled in hand to hand combat, all of which she learned from reading. The key has chosen her to be Sherin's knight. The two travel towards the land of Overon in hopes of transforming the nation into a place for scholars. But before Catria leaves she imparts a very important mission and power to her young assistant, one that may well affect the future of all mankind.

Next time, a prince and his knight the thief.

Its culture dummy or is it?

Another deep post, one not about women (I really think I'm just repeating myself over and over again when it comes to those posts sometimes.) I think one of the biggest problems of our time is conflicting cultures. Racial, religious, social what have you. In general these lead to a clash of ideals, why this past year I have had someone tell me that we can't change the world just because of this. The person (who will not be named to protect the guilty) told me in some cultures people think computers are bad, we don't question them or try to change them because its just the way they are. At the time the argument was reasonable, but as I wrestled with it a bit more I realized that it isn't satisfactory. For instance there are people who believe that genocide is right, we live in a country that allows people to hate people just because they're different and it was once acceptable to pull such people out of thier homes and kill them. I'm not saying that we should dump correct ideals on such people, a historical example of this is imperialism.

Here comes historical analysis so feel free to skip ahead, but I urge you to read on to since its a look into my thinking process. With imperialism it was basically the White culture sitting upon its high horse in the world. While their culture was at its peak someone said "Hey! We're good we should spread the wealth". Thus began imperialism. Through that the White man (yes men, since back then men were considered geniuses who could do no wrong, until World War I and II.) decided to go to Africa and Asia. And so the White men went off thinking their intentions (while noble at first) would change the world. But no it didn't and it literally ruined civilizations and showed how much civilized folk could be idiots.

End brief historial analysis. Yes it would be wrong to just up and decide that one's way of thinking is correct over another. However is it a reason that we should hide behind? It becomes a scapegoat of why people are allowed to do the things they do or to divert the blame. It's sad to see that people cannot just take the blame and fix themselves. I think its one of the most difficult problems to fix in the world. Thats why sociologists and psychologists write books and articles about cultures and seeking to understand what it is that makes people do the things they do. Can we really use culture to justify the things we do? If a White person is loud in public we accept that and say "Oh its because they're White, your so cute". Or we say "you like this stuff?" and what not. We judge based upon the culture that people are into like anime, video games, skateboarding while some are more accepted than others. Some world we live in huh?

In closing I just want to say culture is not a wall that one can take cover behind to justify one's actions. How many times can we avoid a bullet behind such a wall. When one uses cover they must remember that nothing is ever indestructable, it may shield you for a while but next shot might cause it to crumble. Take responsibility and look within yourself to accept who you are and what you want to become.

A Look Into A Pitch III

Well another installment of a look into a pitch III, since some of my readers haven't been posting comments lately (you guys are busy and I understand that or you just have nothing to say). So without further adue.

Communications technology has made many leaps in new forms of communcations. In 2005 we made headsets for phones, 2007 begins the age of bluetooth headsets, 2018 a new piece of technology has singlehandedly revolutionized both mobile communications and entertainment. The MHUD (Mobile Heads Up Display) a small verstile piece of equipment that has made the cellphone and portable music players obsolete. Its a clear blue node that fits behind the ear. With it people are now able to contact others via heads up displays projected in their field of vision and is viewed only by the user and phone calls are taken much like on a bluetooth headset and alerts and sounds are heard only by the user through the small bones in the ear. Such technology has now been applied to military and bounty hunter equipment. Thus the emergence of the standard issue H.O.M (Hunter Operations Monitor) to all bounty hunters. Hunters can take in phone calls, store images of targets, take pictures to verify dead targets, communicate with other hunters on two way radio and display personal health. It is a bounty hunter's most important piece of equipment, it has helped many hunters succeed in many operations.

Warpath special ability: Star of Hate

The military has been experimenting with nano machines for many years prior to 2018. A somewhat stable system has been established by the U.S. government that helps regulate soldiers on the battlefield. Through these nano machines squads can synch actions with each other, each soldier can see what thier squad mates see, what course of action they will perform next and emergency medical actions can be performed. For Warpath, he can activate the nano machines in his body to increase his strenght and dull senses in his body. In a sense he becomes a berserker, but with a stable state of mind. When activated the machines form tribal tatooes that burn a bright red which activates when Warpath gazes upon the satellite that regulates the nanites which glows a bright red in the sky. Thus he calls the ability the Star of Hate. With such power he can carve a path of destruction all while a bright star burns in the sky which is all that those foolish enough to stand in the way of Warpath.

Next time, Ryo's Xyclone motorcycle and the ability of Beholder.

Putting yourself out there

Well I'm back from Mississippi. Had a lot of fun there spending time with my grandma and visiting my grandpa's grave. I suppose this is the mid point of summer. So here's a rare post I thought about while I was away. One of the biggest problems I always tell people is that I never have time for women. With that being said I think the biggest problem I face is the fact that I'm not a very open person. I know on the outside I look pretty mean sometimes (I almost seem emotionless sometimes) so its one of the things that may scare people away from me. I suppose it kind of scares women away from me, that plus I'm not the hansomest guy in the world so screw you shallow world. Looks aside, I'm a pretty strange guy at times. For example, as some of you know I love anime (i.e. I've done two really cheap cosplay costumes for two Halloweens) and sometimes that weirds people out. My guess is that this quirk about me sends the message that I'm not in touch with reality or I'm some geek who still watches cartoons (really you guys anime is not like cartoons, they range from intelectual to porno).

But really thats who I am, I know it's kind of hard to find a girl whos into anime as much as me but I'm trying its just hard for me to please women with this part of me. Since I really don't watch that much American T.V. so I'm not really into reality t.v. or some shows out there. So I can't really relate to most people when it comes to domestic stuff.

Second problem, I don't talk much. It's like I tell some people "I don't have much to say so I just keep quiet", in other words I don't want to talk just for the sake of talking so I don't want to talk a person's head off. It's like what most people say, when you find that person you'll make it so that you treat them differently than other people. When your a quiet guy like me, actions speak louder than words so thats why I do ninja work for girls free. But thats the problem, the "s" at the end of girl rather than singular. It's hard for me to talk to girls sometimes, no I'm not afraid of them its just that I get really shy. I feel so awkard and out of place, in fact if I tried flirting with a girl you'll notice how awkward and difficult it is to me.

I couldn't put myself out there for women to notice me even if you gave me a manual. I would see it as if I had to jump through hoops sometimes to gain nothing or wasting my time that I could have been doing other things. But I suppose thats the thrill of the hunt. I wish I had it easy like in some anime where the girl confesses to me or I just so happen to run into the perfect girl while getting to class. But then again such a scenario would never happen in my world since its the guy who has to win the girl.

I might be the only one to blame for all this and not trying to find someone. Its just hard sometimes. I'm a good guy I know that, but sometimes I think that it just means that girls would just see me as the good friend rather than as a young man they would love to date. I could change the way I do things, but I feel that I'm at a point in my life where I'm satisfied with how women see me. I might meet that girl who notices the good points in me rather than the shallow points. Perhaps another female reader other than the ones I know of who read this will see that and that would be my way of putting myself out there.