It's Happened Again

Well to please my audience (well one person in particular and I know he'll love this one) a historiography (history term I learned this semester, its the study of how history has been studied) of my love life. Basically I've been single since the day I was born. Elementary school, yes I have liked a few girls. One of them actually goes to the same school as me now and the other goes to UCI. The second girl, the cute thing (thats what everyone tells me anyways) was that I liked her for six years. Yes six years, from sixth grade to senior year of high school. Up until senior year of high school I began to feel nothing for her. I couldn't hear her voice anymore. Thus I gave up on her, I always knew that nothing would ever would have happened between me and her. I think it was my bitterness that took over at that point. I wanted to be loved in a surrounding that hated me for simply existing. It consumed my soul to the point where I wouldn't be able to make any girl happy. Funny thing is she was the one I based Naoki from Demon Savior off of. She will always be the basis for Naoki nothing will ever change that. Speaking of my anime ideas, Mercenaries Suite was based off how I abandoned my love for her.

I think the same thing is happening again too this year. The girl I like I feel nothing when I see her. Granted I'm happy to see her since she's a friend, but when I look at it from a logical stand point I know nothing about her. To counter any arguement that one of my readers have (thats it I know what you're thinking) I'm not sure if I can tell her who I am. I'm not sure if she would care or understand what I've been through up until this point. I probably wouldn't be able to understand her either since we have different personalities. So I've decided that nothing would have happened between us. Don't get me wrong, I just hope that one of these days I'll be able to sit down with her and simply talk with her. She's a part of my class and a part of our community, so when college is over I'll be able to keep in touch with her when everyone goes thier separate ways. So I say my good bye to this girl...

On to the next subject, and I know one reader will love this (again I can read your mind) there is another girl. A little bit about this girl, I met her this year. I'm not going to say much because it'll give it all away. I think that all of the girls that I've liked have been more physical than emotional or spiritual. There's just something about this girl thats beautiful. Seeing her faith and dedication to things spiritual and work is encouraging and inspiring to me. Spritually she is a strong young woman. Seeing her unwavering faith was beautiful, so beautiful that it made me cry (I mean emotional sobs and I screamed a bit). The things she does whether it's helping out behind the scenes or helping others is something I can relate to. Since I live to serve others (since I was a boy scout) and I like to help others too. So I think theres more potential here than anyone else. But then again it all relies on me if there ever will be anything. So until then I can only hope and hope that this girl will continue to grow as the years go on.

That satisfies one reader, A Pitch X- Project: Starfall is tomorrow