My pitch ideas and Me

To my one dedicated reader I sincerely hope that you will read this since I know sometimes you don't read my pitch ideas (some of my female readers think they're pretty good). But I think I'll take this time to explain a little bit about how these ideas reflect my own life in some points. If you've taken the time to actually go back and read the first pitch idea post I made for Demon Savior (the no. 1 anime idea that I really want for an anime) ideas like this reflect parts of my life and the people around me too. Demon Savior was a reflection of my days in high school and how I felt alone and bitter through the character Ryo (who I based off myself). Despite the pains and sorrows he still managed to survive in a world plagued by darkness. More or less it started as a revenge fantasy against the people who picked on me since they were the main villians (the generals).

But despite the inspirations by the people who tormented me, the future ideas would become some what original in my mind anyways. Such as the Children of Overon. More or less some of the pairs are based off parts of my personality or they're original. One of them that I think really reflected me was the pair Valaro and Alicia. This pair is my second favorite (first being Laurie and Vesper), Valaro is once again based off of the part of me that wanted a relationship. He's a kind and sensitive young man who only wants the best for others. His feelings towards his knight the prositute Alicia, reflect the feelings that I had towards my precious friend. Despite all the heartbreak and tragedy that befell Alicia, it made Valaro feel blessed with his own life and he wanted to extend that blessing to her. Psy:wind was another idea that I made upon the events that happened this year, but you might already know some of the story behind that idea.

Last up the two ideas Mercenaries Suite and Asus Rapt: Assassin of Royalty. These are another two ideas I'd want to see as an anime. But for these two ideas it represented my feelings to the question "what if a relationship never happens?". Mercenaries reflected my abandonment to my feelings towards the first girl I liked and Asus represents the part of me that doesn't care, but I'll still live a life that I feel is best. The young men in these stories demonstrate how one can turn his back on women they love and go out and still make something of themselves. For Asus it means that future generations of assassins will be born and from that they still can live full lives. If I could pick out a idea that best represents my life in terms of a relationship it's Asus Rapt. My thoughts however are even if a relationship never happens I'll still live a good life, if it does happen then its a blessing. However its a life that I choose to live and if someone wants to share it with me then I'll let them in.

Well hope that this post made any sense and I hope it gives another deeper understanding as to why I write pitch ideas.

Another installment of if I were a girl

If you've read the title yes this is somewhat of an extension of my previous post that I did a while back about what I thought of myself if I were born the opposite sex. I got one comment from one of my readers on what kind of guy I would go for, but when I thought about that for a bit I knew that I would get a biased answer which I will go over later. Now time for disclaimer: no I am not going to get a sex change, I am perfectly happy with being a guy since right now I am happy with the person that I am. Also I am doing this purely for entertainment purposes only for both myself and perhaps for a few of my readers. Plus don't all guys have a feminine side, biologically men and women have both testostorone and estrogen in them so we all have a little bit of the opposite sex in us. So sit back and relax as I explore this topic a little more.

I know I said that being a girl I might have been into anime in a more casual sense. Meaning I would watch some of the mainstream series online and such. But there would be potential for going a step above that. As such nothing shouts hardcore anime fan girl like COSPLAY. Yes if I happened to be that much into anime as a girl I would cosplay, and even go so far as making my own costumes. Its insane, as a guy right now I can barely think up characters I can do with what I have around me. But that would come up with because my mom would probably have taught me how to use a sewing machine at an early age or hand sewing. Such is the life of some girls, its typical gender role stuff. I'd probably cosplay as Belldandy from Ah! My Goddess or Alicia or Isara from Valkyria Chronicles. Overall I'd still be a strange girl, in that sense.

Now for the biased part. I got a question from a reader (I don't know if you still read some of my nonsense now a days) the type of guy I would go for. Its a difficult question, for one thing I would have to say a person like I am. Yes a guy who is like who I am right now (this is really wierd as I write since I refer to the person I am right now). I mean you think about it and the answer we arrive to sometimes is that we want someone like ourselves. Its a real head scratcher I know since being a guy writing trying to write from a opposite gender perspective is difficult for anyone (try it, its not easy). So its a tough topic but I would have to say it would be someone like I am. Gentle yet strong, dependable, faithful (in a spiritual sense and emotional) and hardworking. But yeah I'm the type of guy a girl would love to introduce to her parents.

So yes I do have a feminine half to me despite the obvious physical appearance. That half I keep locked in a box within my mind in the cardboard box that I keep my crazy thoughts and anime ideas in (its boxes within boxes sometimes in my mind). So yeah this was a strange post but I hope it entertained you in some way or even made you think I was stranger than you think.

A Catcher in the Rye moment

I decided to write this upon a something that happened to me on facebook. So yes its a true story, much like some of the things I write (my anime ideas occur in my fictional world its a pretty diverse universe). So I think it was like Tuesday or Wednesday (apparently my facebook won't tell me), I get a friend request from some guy who was in my graduating class from high school. Now heres the funny thing, I've only heard of the guy; barely talked to him nor did he make any attempt to talk to me. Long story short yes I accepted his friend request, if you're going to be (pardon my rude langauge but I have a feeling that my cynical side is going to take over) bitchy about who your friends are on facebook why make a ignore button for such requests I don't know maybe you don't want thier garbage posts on your homepage thats perfectly reasonable.

Lets just say that my motivation was to merely humor the guy, do I expect a happy birthday from him on my birthday or have him ask me how I'm doing (again pardon my language) HELL NO! In all honesty I didn't even talk to the guy nor did he even talk to me or acknowledge that I existed in high school. Tangent time (but this time its necessary) my favorite book is Catcher in the Rye a classic that has been banned from some high school English classes. Theres a part where I think its Holden's roommate is getting ready for a date with some girl that Holden knows really well. His roommate is one of the jocks at the school and he asks Holden if he can borrow his blazer to wear. Upon hearing this Holden realizes he's only asking him for something for his own benefit. He knows that his roommate would only talk to him if he needed something and that Holden would gladly fufill any request just because he knows how popular he is. In the end he says no and they get into a big fight that makes Holden black out for a bit.

I feel that this was much like a moment like that. I really don't care if this guy even reads this post or not (its linked in my facebook and he may not even know its about him) in all honesty I don't even know the guy. Go back to the top paragraph to understand why I allowed him to be my friend. From my understanding (I got this purely from his facebook page and from my own deductive reasoning THATS WHY BEING A HISTORY MAJOR ROCKS!) we're only friends because we went to the same high school. One word that sums it all up: SHALLOW. Also from looking at the mutual friends I live with two of the guys he also knows again: SHALLOW. So from my understanding he's only friends with me because of two reasons One: we went to the same high school and Two: he's making me a middle man to communicate with my roommates. Call me crazy lots of people do it and its fun, paranoid no, should I even be semi-angered and even posting something like this? thats in the eye of the beholder.

I guess I'm posting this because he's one of the people who actually got to live a proper high school life something I never really had. I'm not jealous or envious even though I do seem like I'm pissed off. I just want to be understood and he's someone that will probably never take the time to understand me. I had so much crap to face everyday when I went to my high school that it would have driven a weaker man to insanity or make him another Columbine kid. I can bet you that he's never faced anything like that nor do I feel that he would understand what I went through. I know I bring up my high school days a lot but those days were days that had a strong hold in my life. I remember sharing a little bit about these days back in my second year at AACF Thanksgiving dinner and how I expected people to give me a round of applause for sharing, but something different happened. I got my applause, but afterwards I got hugs and people telling me how much they loved me and wanting to know more to understand who I was. Those are the people I am proud to call my friends and brothers and sisters. I don't think this person would ever feel the same he'd just say "wow, it seemed pretty tough for you back then.". He just wouldn't understand.

Once again I don't care if he reads this, if he does then I hope he had a better reason for a friend request. If he ever spoke to me I know it'd be out of obligation because of this post and if his first question was "what have you been up to" I'd say "I just remembered an errand I have to run, sorry but I gotta go" (if he wants to come with I'd say its private bussiness) and in reality I'd go for a walk. I'm sure all of us have people on facebook like the person I had, but to those I am friends (on facebook or not) with I am truly blessed to know you.

A Look into a Pitch XII

I meant to post this yesterday but things got a little silly with the post button. So we are nearing the end to the looks into the motivations and knights of the Children of Overon. with 5 princes and 4 princesses done all thats left are 1 prince and two princesses. After I go over all the children I'll post a rough list of the characters as well as a brief description of what motivates thier quest. So now I present our next prince.

Prince Bailan Overon
Age: 11

A young prince who now lives on the streets of the city of Nieon a city ravaged by a civil war for 5 years. A violent coup has overthrown the royal family leaving the city itself to its own devices. The city now under martial law seeks to maintain order despite a escalating battle. Prince Bailan once a noble prince now lives a life alongside a young thief, both struggling to survive the streets of Nieon. It is a cruel life for the young prince, he has become a rebellious and deceitful young boy. Stripped of his title and identity he now seeks to live a life free from the city of Nieon and his future title as king. He just wants to get the game done and over with so that he may be free.

Meylin Rone
Age: 12
Occupation: Thief

A young girl who took Prince Bailan under her wing. She is the one who taught the young prince how to survive on the streets. Once the leader of a band of thieves, Meylin now roams the streets with Bailan stealing swords and treasures from the wealthier residents. The two lead simple lives built upon decieving and stealing from others. Yet despite the lives they live they both wish to be free. Meylin who once found a family in her band of thieves now only wishes to escape the life style that plagues them both. An expert in sneaking and constructing explosives she can build traps, while Bailan, an expert fencer, distracts and baits opponents into traps. The key has chosen Meylin as Prince Bailan's knight. Will these two escape the evil that has consumed the city they live in? Will Meylin help Prince Bailan escape his destiny so that he may regain his ability to choose what lies beyond?

Next time a princess and her knight the religious fanatic.

A tale worth telling

If you've read the title of the post then let me reassure you that this is not a pitch post. Those are amply titled as you have read. I suppose that this post came up with the thoughts as my title as ninja of Long Beach. A proper origin story is somewhat appropriate I guess. I want to paint a story of how a young man, who once considered himself as a charming prince and valiant knight turned to a life in the shadows of society and now seeks to protect the lives of those he loves.

I suppose it all started when I was young, when my family would always be invited out to dinner by some relative. Whenever we would see them they would always give my older brother and I the same kind of praise anyone would give to little boys. They would say "oh, what handsome princes", now my parents would be flattered and being the small child that I was I found the praise gross. HEALTH LESSON: when you're little attraction to the opposite sex is gross, until you hit puberty then everything changes as seen in my posts. I felt the same way, I suppose anyone would wish to be praised like this in a non-patronizing way. Girls love the fairytale scenario, where they hope to find that one prince charming or knight to come and sweep them off thier feet. 8th grade, women always say that girls are vicious when it comes to aggressive girls, they were right. I find myself recieving no sympathy when I was bullied in 8th grade all I would find is criticism and hatred. Thus the charming prince died.

9th to 12th grade, no changes. Senior year is when this blog was born. At that time while the prince rotted in the ditch called my junior high a valiant knight sought to battle the forces that hated him. However while others had friends and companions who they could say that they would be friends forever, this knight found none who were like that. The ones who called themselves friends to the knight would betray and abandon him. While the knight gave up on them he would try to carve his own path. These would become the defining moment to the life of the future ninja, I would see the world for what it was ugly and shallow. I desparately tried to live a life like a valiant knight, the one strength that I drew was from the first girl I liked. If you remembered anything from my past posts she was the one I liked since sixth grade till Senior year. 9th and 10th I would see her every so often, I never really talked to her since she was one of the "popular" girls (stupid school, clicks I hate them). While the world seemed to fall apart around the knight she was the light that he wanted to protect. But at the same time he saw that his actions could never reach her and his valiant efforts were in vain. Junior year the event that ultimately breaks the knight (I wrote about it, its in the earlier posts so read it another example of brutal honesty). Leaving his gov/econ class a bunch of girls seemingly "wait" by the door at the end of class. Now I only get a 5 minute passing period so I didn't want to be late. Then I exit and upon my departure I hear a sarcastic comment from one of the girls "My what gentlemen we have". It breaks and infuriates the knight, and the ninja kills the knight and from then on there was only the ninja.

Thus I became the ninja of Kennedy, a dark shadow who saw nothing but ugliness from a world that hated me for existing. I wanted nothing more but to get through a day of school so I worked my hardest and from it I furthered my studies and journey to Long Beach. And for some of my readers the people there truly changed the bitter heart of the ninja turning him into the ninja of Long Beach. I kind of gave my title as ninja back in high school because of two reasons. One: Naruto was real big back then (this was back before it became main stream) and two: I would bend the world to help me survive, I would do it so that the world would never know I was there and slowly destroy it by living a decent life when others didn't. Its a fun title I give to myself, it may sound like I'm joking to others if they read this. Maybe they see a funny story or maybe they see a tale of how a idealistic boy's hopes and dreams were destroyed by the world but from the death of those dreams a decent young man emerged.

I gave this title to myself and my predecessor (I've heard only bits and pieces of his tale, but from those snippets I think he deserves the title too) because through one's pain and suffering one should never give up. To give up is to give in to the world that seeks to consume the ideals of others. From that one seeks to gain a better understanding of thier existence for me and the first it was in the community we lived amongst AACF. That is my definition of what it takes to be a ninja.

I write this not to say why I gave myself a seemingly silly title, but in hopes of letting people understand why I pride myself in that title (I list this title in my facebook among other titles as well). Another reason I wanted to write this was because of my precious friend. She was the one person who made me wish that I could once again be a valiant knight, even though I was a ninja who (and I quote myself) "couldn't care less if you were kidnapped by witch and forced to make cheap happy meal toys". Not only that but she managed to somehow make this young man feel things he has never felt about a girl before. I know that the little things I did with her never showed her how I really felt, but its a part of my title the unsung hero of the darkness and that was fine with me. I really hoped to be with her, but I think a valiant knight suits her best and she does have someone like that and this ninja couldn't be happier for her. I guess I really am better suited to being a watchful protector in the shadows. I wouldn't wish what happened to me on anyone, I'd make them aware of what this world is capable of and as a result I protect them. I'm not censoring reality from anyone I just want people to be mindful of the dangers of this world that this young man faced.

From prince to knight and finally ninja. People may say that ninjas are cowards because they strike when people least expect it. I say that the world is a coward because it least expects me. They are a group of noble and dedicated warriors, the cowards are the people who don't think they can do anything because they can and when they do you never expect it. That is why I chose this title to define the person who I am, I live a noble life in a terrible world. It is a title that I am proud of and that the world should fear.