What do we give up?
Well end of the semester is coming up fast. I meant to post this a while ago, but with the turn of events that occured in my life it just got lost in translation. I suppose you can categorize this as either a thought provoker or a girl post, like I said earlier girl posts are going to be rarer now. But I degress. Anyways back when I spoke with my room mate, we also got down to the topic of sacrificing time and personal things to spend with a so called significant other. To me this was kind of mind boggling, first off I can make time to be with a girl (especially back then when my friend told me she watched some anime) but the second part changing my personality to be with a girl. Anime I can do, but not personality. If a girl said she liked me, but she didn't like my obession with anime lets just say that the next time she gets kidnapped by a witch and forced to make happy meal toys, the ninja won't save her.
Thats the thing, the world constantly wants us to change in order to survive in the world. Whether it means giving up being nice because everyone is a jerk to you or adjusting habits simply to be with a girl. Conformity becomes a huge issue in our world. In a place where we say its "survival of the fittest" and that being nice just doesn't cut it anymore. The thing we don't realize is that human beings aren't animals, we're a special case where we have the capacity for great good or evil. So to give up being who you are is simply heart breaking, we shouldn't give in to what the world says because the world is shallow. We reward the aggressive with jobs, fame and women, yet the meek recieve nothing. Its not right, therefore nice people should continue to be nice because even though mean people don't appreciate it other nice people will see it as a blessing because other nice people will continue to be nice. I ran into something like this before, high school was a place I hated. I was a nice guy locked into a place of evil and heartlessness. Simply put it was the "horror" the Kurtz saw in Heart of Darkness. I gave up being nice there, I had the mentality that I wasn't locked in there with them they were locked in with me. Thats how I saw the world, everyone was out to get me, so I turned the tables and now I'm out to get them. But as some of my readers know that all changed when I got to Long Beach. In part this blog was started to get those who wronged me, their crimes go unnoticed by the world but not here.
In terms of relationships, I go under the interpretation that we get into relationships because we accept the good and bad of one another. Sure in most cases opposites attract, but to me that leads to atomic explosion followed by a mushroom cloud that smells of farts. Is it necessary to bend backwards in terms of personality to be in a relationship? Does that mean I'd have to give up my obession with anime, gain more confidence in terms of doing things or asserting myself. In all honesty that is a bunch of crap, if I ever found a girl I'd want her to accept me for who I am. Like a car you get what you see, I don't want her to put things on me or change who I am inside. And I'd do the same to her. She is who she is and no matter how flawed she may be I wouldn't want her to change for me. If she wants to improve herself, we'll do it together we'll heal each other's wounds and wipe each others tears away. We shouldn't give up who we are simply for something shallow to please each other. We should change willingly not just because someone said so.
Like I said before, my precious person I really did feel that she wouldn't want me to change anything about myself to please her. When I'm next to her I felt I could be myself, an eccentric anime nerd and it didn't matter to her. Like when I gave her that anime button I gave it to her because I knew she would appreciate the fact that I thought about her in a way that we could somehow relate to each other. She doesn't have it pinned on her backpack anymore, I don't know what happened to it but I know she still was happy that I thought about her. In terms of how this applies to this idea of sacrificing who we are to please the world I still wear the same button I gave her (remember I bought one for myself too). Even though she doesn't wear her's I still wear mine because of the fond memories I had of her and how simply knowing her was such a blessing to me. Sure I have all the right to take it off, she doesn't have hers on, a constant reminder of how I failed on my side yadda yadda yadda. But to that I say no, anime is a part of me and so are my thoughts. I've moved on, but I'm not giving up what makes me, me.
Thats the thing, the world constantly wants us to change in order to survive in the world. Whether it means giving up being nice because everyone is a jerk to you or adjusting habits simply to be with a girl. Conformity becomes a huge issue in our world. In a place where we say its "survival of the fittest" and that being nice just doesn't cut it anymore. The thing we don't realize is that human beings aren't animals, we're a special case where we have the capacity for great good or evil. So to give up being who you are is simply heart breaking, we shouldn't give in to what the world says because the world is shallow. We reward the aggressive with jobs, fame and women, yet the meek recieve nothing. Its not right, therefore nice people should continue to be nice because even though mean people don't appreciate it other nice people will see it as a blessing because other nice people will continue to be nice. I ran into something like this before, high school was a place I hated. I was a nice guy locked into a place of evil and heartlessness. Simply put it was the "horror" the Kurtz saw in Heart of Darkness. I gave up being nice there, I had the mentality that I wasn't locked in there with them they were locked in with me. Thats how I saw the world, everyone was out to get me, so I turned the tables and now I'm out to get them. But as some of my readers know that all changed when I got to Long Beach. In part this blog was started to get those who wronged me, their crimes go unnoticed by the world but not here.
In terms of relationships, I go under the interpretation that we get into relationships because we accept the good and bad of one another. Sure in most cases opposites attract, but to me that leads to atomic explosion followed by a mushroom cloud that smells of farts. Is it necessary to bend backwards in terms of personality to be in a relationship? Does that mean I'd have to give up my obession with anime, gain more confidence in terms of doing things or asserting myself. In all honesty that is a bunch of crap, if I ever found a girl I'd want her to accept me for who I am. Like a car you get what you see, I don't want her to put things on me or change who I am inside. And I'd do the same to her. She is who she is and no matter how flawed she may be I wouldn't want her to change for me. If she wants to improve herself, we'll do it together we'll heal each other's wounds and wipe each others tears away. We shouldn't give up who we are simply for something shallow to please each other. We should change willingly not just because someone said so.
Like I said before, my precious person I really did feel that she wouldn't want me to change anything about myself to please her. When I'm next to her I felt I could be myself, an eccentric anime nerd and it didn't matter to her. Like when I gave her that anime button I gave it to her because I knew she would appreciate the fact that I thought about her in a way that we could somehow relate to each other. She doesn't have it pinned on her backpack anymore, I don't know what happened to it but I know she still was happy that I thought about her. In terms of how this applies to this idea of sacrificing who we are to please the world I still wear the same button I gave her (remember I bought one for myself too). Even though she doesn't wear her's I still wear mine because of the fond memories I had of her and how simply knowing her was such a blessing to me. Sure I have all the right to take it off, she doesn't have hers on, a constant reminder of how I failed on my side yadda yadda yadda. But to that I say no, anime is a part of me and so are my thoughts. I've moved on, but I'm not giving up what makes me, me.
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