A Mark of a Man?

I ought to shoot myself for making another post like this, but that would mean that I don't get to graduate and some of my readers would be sad if I did. Well it's my first week of school, seems to be a pretty manageable semester for once. Well my journeys has brought about another question in my mind in terms of love, as well as recent events. I won't go into details or specifics, but if you know what's going on then try to be considerate for my sake (otherwise its the end for these posts and you'll only get mindless rants and anime ideas which aren't bad as well).

It has come to my attention that Facebook has become a medium to control the world (future dictators, evil geniuses and Decepticons take note, Facebook controls people). One little change to your profile info and everyone is all over you. Now one of my friends decided to take off her relationship status, thus Facebook being the all mighty power of the bearer of news decided to list her as and I quote "no longer listed as single". In comes a flood of comments, asking who, if there was, the lucky guy was. Sure enough it became a flood of comments and me being the watchful protector that I am decided to see if you actually could clear the relationship status. Well the idiot's answer is YES, you can clear it. Now Facebook being the wretched machine being run by Skynet actually does lists you as "no longer listed as single" and shows that delightful (or heartbreaking HAH!) heart broken HAH PUN!!!! Then I got the comments, just another way I look out for a friend.

So not only did I single handedly prove how Facebook makes people gullible and to those of my readers wondering (or hoping for some) if I got a girlfriend the short answer is NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
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OOOOOO. Wow that wasn't short at all, but thats not the point. But upon reflecting on this one event, it makes me think about what if the girl I hold dear in my heart ever did manage to get herself a boyfriend and obviously it wasn't me. If she ever changed her status to in a relationship with so and so, how would I react? Now a typical answer of my wretched flesh is to become so unbearably jealous and beat myself up on the inside until I had to drink (but then again I hate to drink). However, it's like I learned in my journey as a ninja if something like this ever were to happen then as a follower of Christ you should give them your blessings and pray that God blesses thier relationship. It truly is a difficult thing to do, while the body hates the spirit should be overjoyed. This is the way that I would feel, yes I would be sad that I didn't have the guts to confess my feelings to her and regret it for the rest of my life. I wouldn't want to be a so-called rebound boyfriend either since I wouldn't want to hurt her heart again. You can call me a typical Asian man for not stepping up and embracing celibacy, but I find it a mark of a true man if one can come to terms with feelings of jealousy and regret. Since these feelings will pop up in the most unexpected times and emotional responses like jealousy are typically the first things you'll feel guaranteed.

I can sit here and say "oh I wouldn't regret anything if things don't work for the two of us" but at the same time I don't know what to do with a girlfriend if I ever got one. She's definitely a girl that any guy would go for so competition is fierce, while others would try to win her heart, I simply watch her from the shadows making sure that her heart doesn't move towards darkness or pain. To some it sounds like it sucks to be me, but I don't see it that way. As long as she's happy and continues to be a blessing in my life and those around her I'd be happy. While I am drawing near to end of my undergrad career, I'm not sure if I'll ever have the courage to tell her how I feel; in fact I wouldn't know how to do it (I wish there was an instruction book for all this). It pains me to think and write this, but at the same time I'm at peace not because I can justify why in my case a girlfriend is optional, but because I care for this girl so much all I can wish and pray for is for her happiness and spiritual growth and it wouldn't matter to me if we ever got into a relationship.

A good friend of mine once asked me if she or one of her friends ever came accross this blog and read amist all the anime and rants I post about women or her and if she found out it was her, what would I say to her? This may not be word for word or even what I would say at the moment. I may never say these things to her but for the record this is how I would confess to her.

To me you're someone special. Someone who brings a smile to my face and a smile to my soul. Of all the girls I've been interested in you were the first to warm my heart spiritually. Both you and your faith are beautiful, so beautiful that it once brought me to tears and made me feel how blessed I truly was in my life. You've truly shown me what it means to put ones faith in the lord. I don't know how you feel about me, I have my own problems but you're someone who makes those pains and sorrows smaller amongst my brothers and sisters. No matter how you answer, I'm glad that God has blessed me with an opportunity to meeting a wonderful girl like you and that you truly have a brother who loves and cares for you.

And thus no matter what happens she'd have my blessings and the ninja of Long Beach will be at her service forever. Is this all a mark of a fool or the mark of a true man? Only time will tell.

Good People

More or less I think I wrote about this already, but I think it could apply to others as well. A good friend of mine once told me that it was surprising that a good man like me is still single. Quite frankly it's more or less a personality flaw on my behalf, since I really don't have confidence at all and I'm really not all that aggressive (once again to confidence). Not to say that I'm trying to fix it, it's hard but I've got better things to do. Which brings me to the topic of this post, more or less an obervance of mine through out the years. I know some guys who are nice and charming (like me heh heh) and girls have good hearts as well, yet despite it all they're still single like me. Again more or less it could be personal morals or what have you, but still it's surprising. I'm not going to reveal names, so don't ask me who these people are when you see me or post guesses in the comments or Facebook otherwise I'll conjure up some shadow replicas of me and send them to you to annoy you to DEATH and it'll be the most uncomfortable thing ever or make you watch an emo anime I enjoyed (it is not for the fient of heart).

I know one guy, we'll call him Mr. A. Now Mr. A is a very good man, he has truly encountered things in his life that would challenge anyones faith. More or less it's the same kind of faith that admire in my interest as well. He has many skills in music and dancing skills that I'm pretty sure any average healthy girl would enjoy as well. Yet despite it all he's single and he's pretty surprised about it too. Even more surprising he was single throughout his whole career in school. More or less I feel for Mr. A, I think I might end up the same way too but I've come to terms with it if that is the case. Since it's like I learned this year, a girl won't change the way I love god.

Next person, we shall call her something generic as well Ms. D. Now Ms. D is in the same year as me and back when I first came to Long Beach (being the bitter sour puss I was) she was the one girl that I didn't want to get to know. Since I always thought if she and I ever spoke, to her it would have been more of a friendly obligation rather than a real effort to get to know me. Well a few weeks later and she and I end up in the same small group and she and I actually got to talk more. Yes she is a good person and more or less I can say that she's dateable. She's a very sweet girl, definitely someone that anyone can relate to, but again to my surprise she's single still too. In case you're wondering she was the one I mentioned in one of my anime moments post (again remember what happens if you know who it is keep it to yourself or remember the consequences), like I said then I see her as a really good friend and person and I wouldn't want to change that between us.

So I'm not making fun of these two when I say that it's hard to see that good people like this aren't being chased after by girls or guys. It's like as if Bizarro put a cube into a circular hole and it fit and how the Decepticons made everyone think that the Autobots were jerks. What exactly do we do in a society like this, where good people often go unnoticed in terms of relationships. I guess you can say that maybe it would be better if people like this were better off not in relationships because maybe it would get in the way of thier faith or could damage who they are if things didn't work out. I don't know I'm no psychoanalist I'm a History Vanguard. I guess I'm writing about this to show that I'm not alone in my thoughts about relationships, because there are people just like me who are single as well. Who knows perhaps we'll find those special people, but for now we'll just be blessings to those we know and love.

A Look into a Pitch III

Well time for another installment of my look into a pitch III. Again let me remind my readers that my blog is not entirely about women or my crazy man thoughts about them. It's a place where I come to rant and rave about the many things wrong about society (coincidentally some of them being about women) or a wandering grounds for the various anime ideas I have cooked up in my cockamanie pot called my head. So without further adue the Lightheart armor tech.

The use of armor has appeared in many records of history. The simple thought of placing a hardened material over one's body for defense has now been traded for more flexible and durable materials such as kevlar. Since then armors made of metals have long been forgotten due to weight and practicallity. Cron Corp however is seeking to rectify this problem and revolutionize the weapon industry with the Lightheart armor technology. From a stand point it sounds like something from a comic book or game, however it is about to make revolutionary leap in both offensive, defensive and medical technology. The suits of armor make use of artificial muscles and sense the body's neural impulses to move even crippled limbs or even amplify the strength of the user. It contains life support and a fully functional drug delivery system, so no soldier or patient is ever without medical aid. Wearing the suit is about as comfortable as a second skin. In terms of combat the armor can be customized to any situation and even has adaptive color properties. The suits are made from a newly refined titianium ore, aptly called neo-titianium making the suit light as kevlar yet dense as lead and harder than steel. There are only two prototype suits in existence, one belonging to B-ranked hunter Rin Cron and the other has been decomissioned and now sits in Rin's office in Cron Corp's head office. The prototype suit is currently powered using hydrogen fuel cells, with an average operating time of ten hours before switching to battery back up. Hydrogen power has yet to be fully perfected in 2018, so Rin limits her time for ops and in the suit. Since the death of Rin's father the research and development of the lightheart armor has been put on indefinite hold, but unbeknowist to Rin the prototype suit secretly transmits all combat data and status of parts to a secret server and fabrication department that is developing a personal suit for Rin and production type suits. A final gift to Rin from her father, a personalized suit created from all the combat data compiled from the prototype suit and the perfection of a technology that will change the face of both combat and medicine.

Haxx special ability: Nanite

Nano technology has been tested in all fields such as combat and medicine. Where commanders can know the conditions of all thier soldiers and allowing squads to synch thier actions with each other to execute operations flawlessly. In medicine it is used to combat illnesses, such as pin pointing maligant cells and destroying them or administering drugs to soldiers on the field. In 2018 nano technology is only allowed for military use, such as those in Ares "Warpath" Price. Sheena however has gotten a hold of military grade medical nanites, which allow her to regulate and monitor her physical condition. While these operations are also taken care of by a hunter's H.O.M. (Hunter Operation Monitor) Sheena takes the nanites to another level. She reprograms them to not only monitor her health, but as a last ditch hack into any system. Thus even making her blood dangerous to anything electronic. It also doesn't stop at electronics, she also programmed the nanites to destroy her opponents as well. Where the nanites will change healthy cells into cancerous ones in the bodies of her opponents. So Sheena is to be feared both for her hacking skills and her ability to ultimately hack or destory anything electronic or living.

Next time the H.O.M bounty hunter system and the secret ability of Warpath.

A Look Into a Pitch XII

Well here's another installment of my in-depth looks into another crazy anime idea I have. So without further adue.

Prince Nivel Overon
Age: 21

The eldest son and eldest of all the Overon children. He currently lives with the royal family in the land of Walke, an allied nation to the kingdom of Overon. Being the first of the Overon children sent away he has hardly even spoken to his younger siblings, aside from his younger brothers Ariyo and Valaro. He has however felt a strong bond with his twin sister Neverem, since they both were sent away at the same time. With the start of the game, he feels that there is no need for it since logically he is to be the the true successor to the throne. However that said he will fight to earn his right to the throne and with it he wishes for all to know his name and to acknowledge his right to rule.

Atticus Tendo
Occupation: Mercenary

Once a highly declorated officer in the Overon military. He was dishonorably discharged for the massacre of an entire farming village sheltering a war criminal. Since then he has gone into exile, following a trail of money and blood on the various battles throughout the western lands. His skills have made him highly sought after in battles of conquest and honor. Highly intelligent and ruthless, he'll kill children if their parents hold secrets from him. The key has chosen him as Nivel's knight, and Atticus looks forward to gaining leadership over the military of Overon. Thus the two travel together to carve thier names accross the lands for victory and honor.

Next time, Neverem: Nivel's twin sister and the eldest daughter of the Overon girls and her knight the witch.

A Look into a Pitch XII

Another look into a pitch XII, this pair is really unique and one of my favorite of all the twelve (but the others will be just as unique as well) so without further adue.

Laurie Overon
Age: 12

The third youngest daughter of King Overon. She was sent away to the land of Nicle, a land currently at war with the kingdom of Overon. She holds a strong resentment towards both her father and the citizens of Nicle. Hated and considered an outcast in a land that she is forced to call home. She currently resides with the royal family of Nicle, being held as both a foster child and hostage. There is no love in her life there, she is only seen as a servant as opposed to a princess; to the king and queen of Nicle Laurie has no title. She joins the hunt for her brothers and sisters for only one goal: the utter destruction of the kingdom of Nicle and to demonstrate her power over all the lands. A child who has only seen hatred now joins the game.

Vesper Isen
Age: 28
Occupation: Unknown, a highly unstable psychopath currently held in Nicle prison.

Little is known about this man's former life. Some say that he was a highly respected landowner whose bouts of Schizophrenia caused his descent to madness. Others say that it started all when he was a child and his exposure to an abusive household caused it. Medical records say that he is schizophrenic and paranoid. All forms of drugs and treatments have proven negative, no doctor in all the lands are willing to treat him due to his violent tendencies. He has a past with Laurie, he was arrested for his attempt to murder her in the market square. He wears a mask that is chained to his face and wears tattered rags. His weapon of choice are a pair of bladed gloves with broken glass and rusty nails on the palms. The key has chosen him as Laurie's knight, he willingly accepts her offer to serve her so long as he can kill. Thus the two travel together, Laurie hanging onto the chain around Vesper's neck as her attack dog.

So as you can see Laurie is much like Cinderella, but think what if Cinderella had no fairy god mother and became cynical and vengeful. Instead of a fairy god mother, a murderous psychopath willing to kill those who wronged her and to seek out her siblings to make her dream come true. Next time the eldest prince and his knight the mercenary.