This is how I Imagined it

Well updates will probably be a little more sporatic from time to time. Its going to be another busy semester as well. Hopefully I'll get through it. God has been with me in tough times too so I just gotta have a little faith. I suppose I want to take this time and do some thinking. This past Tuesday I took the bus to a stop on Bellflower hoping to make a transfer to another bus to take me back to the apartment. I got off and I run into my dear friend. I was surprised to see her, so I said hello and apparently she was headed back to the apartments as well only she was walking. So she invited me to walk back with her. I don't know about my readers but it gets lonely when you wait for the bus sometimes. So we walked back together, we cut through the neighborhood to get away from the traffic noises and to enjoy being outside. We talked about things like what we did over break, a little about my plans when I graduate and where God was taking us in our lives.

We got to the apartments at around 12:45 which was pretty good since cutting through the neighborhood cut the time a bit. As I walked with her it reminded me of my own anime idea Psy:wind, the fact that my characters Jesren and Catherine can spend time together as friends is much like the short time we spent together. It was also a time that seemed to test my heart as well, even though I never told her how I truly felt for her, I was glad that we could just talk. Often times I wondered if I should have been more confident or selfish, but I feel that even if I were those things thats just not me. I don't care if people see me as the most confident or strongest person, power and prestige just ruins people it blinds them to things that makes us care for others. I'm glad to be able to watch over her from a distance, yet still be able to get closer to her through talking with her. Thats why I love the story of Psy:wind, it's a story of pure love one that doesn't require that the hero gets the girl its the fact that the guy can use his strength and abilities to care for another even if she doesn't know its him. This instance in my life just continues to reinforce my vow as a ninja and the strength of my heart. Sure its not a romantic kind of love, its one that cares for another and thats all that matters to me.

Comparing this to my other anime that I wrote The Mercenaries Suite, that story was based off the girl that I liked in high school and my bitter feelings. I hated everyone and I casted her away as well. I couldn't hear her voice, though it was a voice that would probably never understand my heart. It was the story of destroying the ones you loved because they don't understand you. It seems like an unbelievable story, yet I didn't want a love like that. I'm glad that this past year gave me inspiration like for Psy:wind, thats how I imagined what love should be like and hopefully people will find it in ways they can imagine it too.

New Heart

Well happy 2010, its been a decade since 2000 huh but thats too painfully obvious. I suppose that this will be a good post who knows. Many people think new year, means new beginnings or some crazy thing like that. I'm not sure if any of us should call it that since we tend to forget the feelings and memories of the past. No this won't be a top ten list, but I suppose that the feeling that I will never forget is my experience with my unrequited love. No I'm not obsessed or anything so I'm perfectly stable and sane. Its a feeling that I never felt before, I don't regret the actions I've taken since changing the past is impossible (look up time paradoxes on wikipedia its interesting stuff). I often wondered where my heart will go from a few months back, where I didn't know what to feel, to trying to make sense of what I lost to renewing my oath as a ninja.

I suppose this past year I've seen much in my heart, I've developed an understanding of love and caring that goes beyond this shallow world we live in. People may find me naive in some things or aspects of my life, but theres no point in judging others since we all have our own problems we don't realize. I find that when we lose something sure we grow stronger, but sometimes the pains or feelings that arise from those lost feelings still remain. When I remembered my position as the ninja of long beach I felt better about my singleness. I think that this was an important feeling since I think I might not find someone, sure its painful but as I said before its a destiny only the ninja of Long Beach can handle. Thats why I'm not necessarily worried about finding another person to care for, since I love everyone equally and thats what makes me and others happy. So in this new year it shouldn't be out with the old and in with the new. It should be keep the old close to your heart and welcome the new along. I may have worries in my heart, but I'll keep faith that god has wonderful things planned for me and I have people I love and who love me. So as this heart faces another year let it be one that keeps on caring and providing freelance services from the shadows.

The After Dark Stories

Well another installment of the After Dark Stories. I suppose chronologically this takes place right after the Infernal Army. The thinking process into these stories either happen spontaneously or after some long thought. This one was ready right after I wrote Infernal Army. As for the next installment it might take some time since it'll cover two characters at the same time. So without further adue I present the third story in the After Dark series.

Immortality has long been the goal of mortals for ages. Various research and quests have been undergone to attain such a goal. For angels and demons who are able to live long lives naturally have observed the struggles of humanity. Since the time of the Dark War only one young man has ever attained long life. His name: Shen "Seal Breaker" Marquis the A ranked hunter. The only mortal to have ever found the Elixer of Eternity. The Elixer of Eternity made from the fruit of the tree of Devern which was destroyed by the Chaos General Selpha, was supposed to grant the drinker eternal life with only a single drop. However to Shen's discovery he finds that the elixer only granted him the life span of that of a angel. This discovery has been both a blessing and a curse, Shen is now able to live his life with his fiancee Rin as a regular human but his clan whom he had shared the elixer with is now beginning to die out.

As Shen sees his family and friends slowly pass away he worries about the future of his clan. However upon his return to his village he learns of a group of Blood Fallen (seal warriors specializing in blood spells) who have developed a formula for the Elixer of Eternity. Only this time the potion will grant one eternal life. Now a young warrior must find and stop the Blood Fallen who are creating the elixer. The quest becomes more than stopping mortals from gaining the power of a god, but to realize though humans may grow weak and frail with age they pass thier strength to the next generation.

When does the future begin when eternity ends?

After Dark Stories: Theory of Eternity.

I have to say this story has a good title. Next time in the After Dark Stories, Naoki and Tristan "Beholder" Chin