It makes you wonder

I suppose this was actually what I wanted to cover in what seemed to be my "emo" post. In my experiences watching some of my romantic comedy animes the one thing that seems to stick out the most in those series is the main male character. The character is a down trodden, yet loveable (I suppose in some respects to some viewers) doofus and still manages to attract women. Strangely enough one of the series popped up in some material I read for one of my history classes. The series is Ah! My Goddess, well the reading actually covered the original movie but the themes present were mostly the same. A little summary of the series: Keiichi is a second year college student who always seems to be screwed over by the world. He has no luck with women and life in particular. However with one phone call he manages to connect to the Goddess Help Line where he summons the goddess Belldandy who is willing to grant him one wish because he wins the favor of heaven for his perserverance in a world that sucks. Well long story short Keiichi wishes for Belldandy to stay with him forever and wish granted let the hilarity begin.

Well that was a fun summary of an anime, if you are interested I have all 50 episodes so give it a watch if you like. Anyways, what seems interesting is that the reading covered gender in the series. Where we see how the meekness and indecisive heart of Keiichi does not match up with what most people consider masculine in society. Yet on the other hand we see powerful female characters such as Belldandy a goddess stepping down from a rank of authority and becoming the perfect girl friend. Even looking into it more is the fact that she sees beyond the expectations of the world for why she is attracted to Keiichi. Simply put, its whats on the inside that counts. The second episode is one that I think anyone whos been screwed over by the world can be encouraged/relate to. Just because you may not be the richest, best looking, smartest or what have you what matters is that you are you. Despite all the weird querks or things about you what matters the most is that people should be who they are since the things that make you unique and your character is what people should see.

If I had to sum up the series in a nutshell its one part academic presentation on gender in society and one part social masturbation. On a social level I wonder why most people don't think like Belldandy. Like I've pounded into the heads of my readers we look too much on the surface, its always first impressions are the most important. I can agree with that, but on the other hand when push comes to shove actions and personality come out when we are presented with challenges. Its only when we do work that people can see what we truly are. On a romantic level I think that some people who give advice on dating should take this to heart. My Dai-Ge's understand this, they know that relationships should have a level of maturity its not so much as to be attracted to someone on a physical level but to know each others strengths and weaknesses and build each other up. It's not all hearts and smiles once two people begin to date each other, its a path of brokeness and tears. When one feels inadequate, the other should support them and make them feel loved in a world that can be so cruel.

It makes me wonder sometimes if people realize this. Most of my roommates for the most part have people of the opposite sex by thier sides. I'm not sure about the exact details on how they're doing or even how it all started for them. One of my roommates in particular, in all honesty and I don't think he reads this and if he does now its my turn to be brutally honest. I really feel bitter about it, he judges me based upon society's rules of how men should approach relationships. It's shallow and ugly there are times I ask why he gets a girl when a good guy like me seems to repel women with my nerdiness and love for anime. Even his girl friend is shallow as well, if you don't remember I mentioned the two of them in another post when they looked at the posters in my room. Thier relationship is basically centered around the fact that its fraternity/sorority ties and the two go drinking and playing beer pong (said roommate also had the "brillant" idea to filter vodka in a PUR water filter). I hate it, if this is what the world wants for two people I will hate the world as well. I understand that the whole concept of dating is the fact that you're trying to find the one person to eventually propose to, but wheres the maturity? It takes a lot to see beyond looks for the opposite sex, but one has to realize that relationships aren't all fun and games like with my roommate. Maybe I have too high expectations but its like my talk with my dai-ge, he knows that I realize that I don't want to get into a relationship simply for "fun" I'm looking for something more. I suppose the whole reason I began to post these feelings I had on relationships was because when I was younger in high school I wanted to be loved. I got love from my family, but the world seemed to hate me for existing. Yet when I came to Long Beach and experienced love from others I really hoped that I would be able to show a girl that I loved her. Yet its difficult for me, so thats why I want to take my time and not rush into things so thats what makes me thankful for my singleness.

All in all we need to be mature when it comes to things like relationships because the world can turn a beautiful thing like love into something ugly. Its a matter of acceptance and perserverance for these things. Beauty lies beyond what we see.

A Look into a Pitch III

Wow I've neglected my looks into Demon Savior. If I remember correctly this one will cover Ryo's motorcycle the Xyclone and Beholder's ability. So without further adue.

It was once a wrecked bike with a sign that said "fix it and you can have it" that was parked outside Crescent High. Upon Ryo's release from the hospital and feeling both blessed and bitter about his attack from his former friends he decides to take up that offer upon the doctor's request to do something with his one hand. It took Ryo only a week to get the bike into working condition working non-stop with help from the zip learning software on motorcycles. Turning the bike into a fine means of transportation. The bike is later heavily customized to include a holster for a UMR (Universal Module Rifle) which can switch between an automatic machine gun, grenade launcher and even a flame thrower; the bike is also equipped with an advanced navigation system allowing for stable ride even if Ryo is not steering. The bike also boasts excellent speeds meaning that it can go on high speed mega highways, where most bikes cannot. A bike fit for a hunter.

Beholder Special Ability: Sensory Overload

For snipers control and focus over each senses is key. Breathing, heart rate and concentration even in the heat of battle becomes the key in making each shot count. For a blind sniper such as Tristan sight is not much of a priority. Rumored to have shot a target from over 100 miles away without even activating his ocular implants, he has become a master of his other senses. By doing so he can make even the most difficult shots possible. However he can take this ability one step further and overwhelm his targets own senses with the microscopic cameras his eyes release. The cameras can project gunshots and holographic targets, the smell of gunpowder and modify the temperature. Normal targets would be confused and decieved by false sounds and targets, but Tristan takes it one step further by manipulating the temperatures and scents during battle. By doing this he can overwhelm enemy snipers, making them comphensate for different elements to take thier shots. He makes it impossible for them to make a correct shot thereby overwhelming thier senses and by then they'll all be dead.

Next time Mikhail's gunkata and the secret ability of Gretal.

Those Lost Feelings

Well I got through finals quite well. So now I promised one of my readers a post and here it is, hope it serves as some good reading. Looking back on the semester it was kind of strange for my love life. As usual nothing really happened in my life. Of course the highlight was renewing my vow as the ninja of Long Beach. The life of a ninja is a tough one, we have to scorn the light and render our services in the shadows. Other than that it seems hard to believe that it's been a year since I really felt strong feelings of love. I don't regret those feelings, I suppose I'll be able to look back on those posts and know of a time where I truly felt something wonderful for a girl. I know its been a strange few weeks in some of my writings when my blog isn't plagued by anime ideas or my frequent references to my characters (believe me its hard for me not to make another Valaro and Alicia reference in this post, oops already did) in my posts. So if you haven't noticed theres still no "new inspiration" for girl posts. Maybe its on my behalf where I don't want to be hurt with rejection or my passivity affects my actions.

Yet when I reread those posts its hard for me to believe that one girl could have such an impact on my life and how my feelings seemed to flow out so naturally. It was like fighting an ninja equal or even superior to my abilities. Someone who challenged me to grow and become stronger and to also show what my heart is capable of when I failed. I'd like to thank my readers (as well as two faithful readers) for the comments and support in those posts. You guys truly saw the honesty and love that I put into those posts. I suppose you guys must wonder if I would ever show her those posts or if I would allow someone to show her one. The answer is yes. Sure it sounds a little weird, but I think that if we keep things hidden then we lose those feelings we had. Thats why I like to look back at those posts and can't help feeling more empowered in my journey as a ninja. It kind of reminds me of a scene from an anime I watched. Bascially theres a couple who haven't seen each other for years and the girl hands the guy she loves a book and in that book she drew hearts on all the pages and it represented how much she loved him. I wouldn't be ashamed to show her one of my posts, because in some ways its like one of my feelings finding its way to her and I think she would enjoy it too.

I know I may not have felt the feelings I had last year in writing some of my posts. But at the same time I found new ones this year. I know what to look for in myself and in a girl. I hope that one day that those lost feelings will reach another girl.