After Dark Stories

Well this one's pretty long overdue. This particular story has been done since July and I guess I never got around to posting it. Aside from the main character in Demon Savior, I've touched upon some of the side characters such as Zaki and Tristan but now we see the next side character to get a story. So without further adue.

Its only been a year since the SS ranked operation and Rhys Viral's life has never been the same. The hunter who set the standards that all S-ranked bounty hunters operations have never been the same. The borders of humanity and demons have been broken and now the jobs he takes on don't give him the thrill as it used to. Bringing in human bounties has proven far too simple and the legendary L.T. wishes to hunt down and fight demons. His wish would soon be granted. A S-ranked operation has been set before him by an old acquantance from the city of Sogorra. The job seems far to simple, infiltrate a secret facility in Antartica and extract a young girl. Only one catch, the girl is a demon whose blood contains a virus that changes humans into demons.

Rhys takes the job and sucessfully infiltrates the facility. Only the job has become much more complicated. The guards and researchers are dead. The facility is now overrun by the child experiments have overdosed on the blood becoming murderous monsters and has been locked down trapping Rhys for three days. The only way to stop the madness is for Rhys to kill them all and the girl he is supposed to rescue. The legendary S-hunter will be put to the ultimate test of survival and three days of murder await in the frozen wasteland.

After Dark Stories: Artic Freakshow

Well thats the long overdue story. This one is an interesting one even though it has a really short description. Its almost equivalent to Batman in which a man fights off hordes of inhuman demons with only his wits and a ton of guns. Next time in the After Dark Stories: Jonas Rapt.

Slowly but surely

I know typically around this time I come up with a new pitch idea, I have one but its going to take a bit more time to fine tune. This one was more or less inspired by the ending of Dark Knight and I'd throw in some romance and betrayal, about how one man becomes hated by the world to protect the woman he loves who's out to kill him. Anyways that'll come in the future. So now we look at some more mindless ramblings. I guess you can say I'm getting to that age/phase in my life where I look at myself and ultimately decide what it'll be like in my future in terms of a relationship. I understand that it takes time and effort to cultivate something like that. I guess ultimately dating and what not eventually leads up to marriage. One of my friends actually got engaged recently. I heard about it during small group, let me tell you I was just as surprised as the others (who were all girls, I'm the only guy but its cool). I know the guy she's engaged to and I approve.

Once again it seems that this post is more or less inspired by this event. I mean its crazy, I mean when your a kid you think that marriage is a far off dream, if you're a girl especially it becomes a dream that you hope to attain (this view is a little biased due to the fact that I'm a guy and I learned about that in an anime). I guess from a guy's perspective its not so much as a dream but as a pretty big step as a man. Afterall its ultimately the guy who asks the big question (with lots of elaborate planning of course). I guess I wonder if I'll ever get to that point, even though I haven't even dated a girl before. No I'm not bitter or anything but I just wanted to explore this idea for a while as it mulls in my head and heart. Its like that question my old roommate posed to me before, that dating eventually leads to marriage even if it takes several tries. I guess if I were to judge myself based on that I'm just a naive idiot and I have no right to be writing this now. But its like I said before I don't want to screw around with a person's heart simply to gain "experience" towards an eventual marriage, but I do recognize the fact that its necessary to gain some kind of wisdom towards it. Its like my dai-ge told me he's been in several relationships some good and some bad but it made him the person I respect today.

So then what do I think seems to lay in the future for me? I guess it seems that this ninja may just embrace his destiny as a lonely yet strong hearted wanderer. Call it old age, but it seems that I may never understand the full complexity of a relationship. Even if I do it just maybe too late or I won't find my person just for me. Don't feel bad for me I have a sense of peace with it. I'm still wondering about my feelings for this girl in my heart but I don't know if I'll ever figure them out. Even if I don't I'm still happy. I've had my experiences with unrequited love, people say that it'll kill you. But I think those who have experienced it are the most noblest people in the world. That though their love will never be returned I think if the person they loved ever knew those feelings they'd be so happy. In the end though they never do and there will always be winners and losers in love. Even those with the purest of hearts. I'm not sad nor am I angry, heck maybe I'm wrong. Maybe I'll look back years from now and laugh at myself with someone at my side. Its my choice both as a man and what seems to be in my heart now. I know I'll never have that Valaro and Alicia relationship, but I feel more like one of my other characters Asus Rapt. He could have chosen the woman that he fell in love with but he chose what he wanted in his heart. To create a legacy of honorable assassins who follow thier hearts even though they seem cold blooded. Thats how I feel now, that even if the future holds nothing slowly but surely what my heart wants and even God's plan for me is all that matters to me now.

So my blessings and congratulations of Josh and Jenna. This heart will forever move forward and grow slowly but surely even if there is nothing.

Knowing

Now its been really long since I last posted something. Its been really busy lately and I know its probably going to get busier. But I guess this time around it'll be a thought provoker with a little relationship stuff thrown in. I suppose you can say this was inspired by a web comic/manga Megatokyo (I'm not sure what to define it as). Anyways theres a guy who goes to help his co-worker build a computer, the guy happens to somewhat like his co-worker's roommate (its a complex story but I recommend reading it so it makes better sense). His co-worker as him if he wants to know any "insider info" on her roommate like favorite color, movie, dislikes. He declines and says that getting that info from her would be like cheating. I guess this is where I'd like to explore, the idea of "knowing" things. I think we all would like to know things in our lives. It would be easy to simply look into a crystal ball and see exactly how things would play out. Its been explored in probably various forms they did it in paycheck, knowing, and a few other stories I can't remember now. It sounds so nice to have such knowledge but I wonder if it would make us happy. I find it scary, because if we knew then what's the purpose of faith or experience? If we knew God's plan for us or if we knew how our actions would play out wouldn't it be frightening if we knew it played out badly? I guess this goes into inevitability as well that if we did know things would play out badly then it would be pointless to do things against it. This gets really touchy because of agency and various theories concerning space time so I think it would be best to leave it at would we have faith or grow from experience if we knew how things in our lives played out?

In terms of my life going to the topic of the young woman thats somehow made her way into my heart. I would like to know if what I feel is truly from God or something simply from my gut. Not only that but I know two of her roommates (names will not be used to protect the guilty) because they've been like big sisters to me during my undergraduate years (even though technically we're the same age somewhat). I kind of feel like I'm in the predicament like the character above. I wouldn't want to know learn "insider info" from them, it wouldn't be fair not to me or to her. I guess when it comes to cases like love its better to learn from the people themselves. Because anyone can tell you things about another person, but it seems lazy to just rely on others rather than finding out things about the people you love yourself. Then again I wonder if when I do finally figure out my feelings its going to be a strange experience. Because when I do know then what will I do? Will I just do like last time and let her pass me by or will I act upon them because of previous experience? I'm not saying its good for me to simply live in blissful ignorance, but I realize the fact that with that knowledge a decision must be made. I just find it weird that of all the girls that I've been around (don't misinterpret this line) she's the one that somehow pops up in my life. Coincidence or God's sense of humor (or are those things the same thing I don't know)? In my honest opinion it feels like a physical thing, but like one of my dai-ges told me to be true to myself and be open to God's will. I'm leaving my heart open to God but I'm still trying to figure out fully if this is a physical attraction or not. So while I may not know now I hope that when that day does come when I do know I'll be able to act properly.