Because One of my Roomates Wanted me to Post This

Well by popular request from one of my roomates I've decided to post this entry. There are three things that turn a ninja evil, those three things are: alcohol, women and money. These three things simply put are what some think a college student run into many times. I'm still underage so I can't drink and I probably never will. Konoha doesn't pay me much when it comes to missions, since I can't take on any big jobs because of school. Women, oh the last one, women cloud my judgement. Thinking about them make me feel funny inside, it's a good thing for me to feel since I'm a guy, but I can't help it sometimes. I know I've been posting too much about this (well besides anime anyways), but see the title, women they make you feel sore all over. The problem with me is that I pretty much have no confidence in myself. I can't tell a girl that I like them because I fear rejection. However some would say that once you get it off your chest you can think more clearly (don't read too much into this though, whoever is reading this). Anyways, I'm a man of duty and if theres something that needs to be done in terms of school or personal stuff I need to take care of them and not focus on someone else. Boy writing this makes me feel that I'll become a lonely old man.

Funny thing, half of my apartment are in relationships. So in the room I stay in I'm the only single guy. My other roomate however is making more progress than I am, and I admire him for that. It's cool to see that he and the girl that he likes want to get into a relationship together, but at the same time they both know that they can't be together (sounds like a good anime idea to me though). As for me I know I'm not making any progress. I know nothing about her and she knows nothing about me. Sounds like my elementary to high school crush to me. All I can do is admire her from far away. I'm not angry or anything about being single (being single rocks though), but its like what my roomate told me it gets more difficult to get into relationships when you get older and go to work. Contradictory when it comes to me, work then pleasure. So I don't have time and ninja work doesn't earn me much sometimes. I know I don't win any girls over based on looks alone, I have no problem with my body or looks I'm fine the way I am.

I guess the real problem is personality wise. Like I mentioned in one of my earlier posts, I'm a nice guy; the kind of guy that you see in those cliche romance movies or animes that the girl always falls for in the end. The one thing the barrs me from a relationship is that I don't talk much, I'm kind of eccentric and I'm an otaku (I watch too much anime and play too many games). I don't know if I have what it takes to make that girl smile or any girl for that reason. Theres nothing really special about me, but you always hear about the good things that guys can do for a girl like play an instrument, good with computers, and sing. I can't do any of those things. All I do is sit in front of a T.V. or my computer and watch anime and play games. I'd be lucky if a girl did half of the things I do.

A relationship would be a nice thing for me, but I realize the cruel reality of it all. A relationship is a high maintence thing, it has it's stresses and even consequences. I'm not sure if I can handle it all along with school work. Although if I were ever to find that one girl that I can care for, I'd be her ninja. I'd protect her with my life and make her smile and feel loved. But for now, girls just make me feel sore all over and cloud my judgement.