Enemies

You know those people who you dislike and who seem to dislike you? I have many of those in my life. I mentioned before I don't have that many friends. I say in proportion wise I have one friend to about five enemies. I really find it impossible that some one like me can be disliked and picked on by a small group of people. I guess I really take that keep your friends close and your enemies closer kind of thing going on for me. Its really sad I know, I'm about the last honest person I know in this world. I can't say when this all happened I guess I can blame my Jr. High School days. How much I hate my naive self back then, I'd like to kill him myself. Anyways, that time old friends became enemies and new ones came to exploit my weaknesses.

Maybe its because I don't fit in, maybe its because of Jr. High, who knows. I really can't defend myself since I'm all alone in a world that just can't accept a person like me. Theres no mom or dad to protect me at school, no friends to talk to for guidance. I really am alone, while evil people like those who torment me and make everyday going to school an absolute chore for me. Heh, listen to me I sound like one of those cliche tormented writers who could go on to be the villan of a massacre. I'm never going to become that, I won't take vengence on those who have wronged me. As much as I like to bottle it all up inside of myself its not going to be very healthy in the end. Maybe one day those who torment me will see justice.