Teh Craziness

Well time for another post. I'll let my readers guess what this post is going to be about. Earlier this week I had a interesting talk with one of my roomates. We both happened to be eating dinner around the same time when this thought arose from him I guess. He asked me "How come I never see you with any girls?", more or less I was intially surprised with this question. It's like in anime when a character says or asks something so surprising that an arrow or something just happens to go through them. Well that was the anime moment of that day (gosh I have too many of those). He mentioned that of all the roomates I have never been around or been seen with any girls. Since one roomate has a girl friend, one just got one, one's a real player and is always around girls, for himself he tends to keep it under wraps.

To be quite honest it's not that I don't enjoy being around girls, it's just that I feel really shy around them. I mean I think that it's me not talking to them, but me speaking through my actions. Like I mentioned I do ninja work for girls free of charge. However aside from that I guess said roomate wanted to know if there was a girl that I like. I told him yes and gave him the two hints that I'd give anyone. She's in aacf and is a second year. I guess those hints were very vague and he still hasn't gotten it yet. Although two readers have already guessed (the first person was a really good one since she got it in one guess, how you did it I'll never know).

Anyways I'd usually like to not write about my love life (especially twice in a row), but that past talk really made me think as any talk or look at my social profile on the many "no" answers I recieve (it's 36 now a nice even number). When I see her I usually don't feel that warm feeling in my heart, but now I feel it in my soul too. I guess you can say I feel somewhat comfortable around her. She likes anime and so do I, she's even willing to watch some with me. Like I mentioned before the faith she displays made me cry. She made me feel so blessed in my life and I couldn't imagine what I would have done in her situation. I thought about that last night as I laid in bed and before I knew it I had tears in my eyes again. Not because of how I would have ended up, but the dedication and faithfulness she displayed in a heart breaking situation.

Enough of that though, my roomate brought up an interesting point. I told him that I usually didn't have enough confidence to let the girls I like know how I feel about them. He replied "you're never going to have the confidence", it wasn't necessarily an insult but more along the lines of confidence shouldn't be an issue. I missed my chance once and even had six years to do it, but I never did. So you can say that I learned something, I'm going to take that last quote to heart and really think about if I want to go forward with this young woman. But at any rate this ended up being another girl post, I promise I'll rant about something or type up that look into a pitch III or even a pitch idea (XII is in the works now I need to perfect it now). So all in all women just drive me plain crazy. Back to my hole with my history books and other class readings along with some anime and video games (Mercenaries 2 shipped today so hopefully I'll have a fun weekend =D).