Who is to Blame?
A serious post now. Nobody's perfect, I know that all too well. I guess one of the things that I do is beat myself up for somethings. I'm not going emo if that's what your thinking so I don't cut myself to feel better or do drugs. It's more or less like an inferiority complex like a self loathing. Now I'm proud of myself most of the time, but I guess if I had to put a time where this problem started it was during junior high school. I always felt that things were always my fault. So I kind of blame things on myself for any bad things that happen. I think my bitterness came from all this hatred that I was exposed to. I everyone picking away at me made me think that I was a pretty bad person for a while. So I began to blame myself for any bad things that happened.
However, I just want to say this that I'm trying to get over blaming myself for things that I have no control over. So I don't want this post to sound like some kind of suicidal post because its not and I just want to say something that's been put on my heart. It's kind of like a sermon that I heard at church a while back. We live in a world where we try to justify things not being our fault. We always try to devert the blame to someone or something else as some kind of defense mechanism. It all ended with sometimes it's alright to say that you were at fault. However it shouldn't end there, just because you say it's your fault doesn't mean you shouldn't learn from it. I feel that I have grown a bit over the few years. I have people who can shed tears with me, I can talk to for prayer (this one is to one of my readers you know who you are) and those who love me for who I am.
It's difficult we try to make ourselves less of the cause of a problem instead of saying that we were all in it together. I guess it's in human nature to try to make it so that we make ourselves look better than others when it comes to problems. But anyways when it comes to problems blame isn't something that should be held by one person it should be distributed even to come to one solution.
However, I just want to say this that I'm trying to get over blaming myself for things that I have no control over. So I don't want this post to sound like some kind of suicidal post because its not and I just want to say something that's been put on my heart. It's kind of like a sermon that I heard at church a while back. We live in a world where we try to justify things not being our fault. We always try to devert the blame to someone or something else as some kind of defense mechanism. It all ended with sometimes it's alright to say that you were at fault. However it shouldn't end there, just because you say it's your fault doesn't mean you shouldn't learn from it. I feel that I have grown a bit over the few years. I have people who can shed tears with me, I can talk to for prayer (this one is to one of my readers you know who you are) and those who love me for who I am.
It's difficult we try to make ourselves less of the cause of a problem instead of saying that we were all in it together. I guess it's in human nature to try to make it so that we make ourselves look better than others when it comes to problems. But anyways when it comes to problems blame isn't something that should be held by one person it should be distributed even to come to one solution.
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