Failing

People are afraid of many things. Whether it may be of dogs, turtles or heights. I guess a fear for me is failing. Every time I do bad on a test or quiz I always feel bad about it. I know I should always try my best and do better next time, but I guess its this fear that allows me to do so. I did bad on a quiz of mine yesterday, and I feel real bad about it. I know it seems strange for me to do so, it was the first quiz and there will be others. I just wanted to start the year off right for that class.

I know what I need to do now, but I can't shake that feeling that I could have done better. I should have made the right choice to put it off till I was ready, but no I jumped in without thinking. Its things like this in military terms that will kill thousands of your soldiers and make you look like an idiot. But its like a ad I saw for Fullmetal Alchemist, "Honor isn't about making the right choices, its about dealing with the consequences." So maybe I should see this as a learning experience, sure I didn't do so well now next time I know what to do and look for and now I will deal with what I've done. The path of a ninja is one filled with blood and tears. It is one that I will make it through however.